Child Sex Predators

I am going to apoligize because this is going to be a downer and normally i do not like to be completly depressing but this is going to be because i am about t obe sick.

Ok, So I am sitting here in the house trying to clean the house but I am engrossed in Dateline NBC's To Catch a Predator. This is absolutly the most apalling thing that I have ever seen. I am watching at this moment a man who brought his little son to meet a girl for sex. I just can not believe that someone would bring his son. There is another guy who is looking to meet a 14 yo girl and have her perform a sex act on a cat. I am glad they did not describe it anymore because i dont want to know. These guys are not usually ones that do this one time. There is one guy that Feminazi and I had discussed because he was young, attractive, a teacher and we were trying to figure out why he was going that well it turns out that while this was in Ohio, he was talking to a decoy cop in Carmel, and I mean Carmel Indiana. He is facing 8 felony counts here. I mean I feel bad for some of these people because their lives are ruined but at the same time, they should be caught because it is better to ruin their lives than allow them to ruin a childs life. It is very scarey

Ok , in a side note, Oscar the dog is currently running in a circle after his tail. He caught it and then started barking at it. He kept running in a circle while doing this and then fell to the ground with a daze in his eyes because i think he is dizzy. Ok that was just a funny sidenote.

I would be very worried to have children right now, but i would be very protective of my child. I would also teach my children about these things. I just dont know because this is sooooo disgusting. I am about to be sick. I am glad to see that these people are going to jail but it might not be enough because they just get back out and then can do it again. The internet just makes it to easy. Well I am over thinking about it.

Pink

Ok, So everyone knows that i am somewhat political. just a little. Well I was listening to some of the new songs from Pink's new album and one of them is call Dear Mr President. It is a really good song. I usually dont love the songs written to the president about his actions because you can not get everything out in 2 or 3 minutes but this is good. I loaded it on my MySpace profile so go take a listen.

Also, there is another song on there, I guess this is going to be a blog about Pink and her new album. There is a song called, Conversations with my 13 year old self. That got me thinking. What would I say to my 13 year old self. I know there is a lot I wish I knew at that age. I would tell myself to calm down, lifes not that big of a deal. It all works out in the end and that rough times are coming but you will survive. I dont know if i would tell myself about mistakes I made because i feel those mistakes made me the person that I am. I would tell myself to accept being gay and move on. The world will not end. Other than that, I would still want things to happen to me as they did because if they did not, i would not be where i am today, with the life and friends i have today.

Ok, My last thing about the album. I think this album is very empowering to women and especially young girls who may look at all the performers out there and get the wrong idea about them. Say what you will about Britney and Christina but I believe that it is mostly an image they try to put out. They could not get that far without being intelligent. Men use themeselves to sell things but that is ok. Some of these girls though do not seem to understand what they are showing to the public. I have a problem with the cameras following people all the time but at the same time, you can not turn off them cameras until you want them. the public wants to know about your life. Girls like Paris Hilton, Lindsey Lohen and etc are bad influence because they are not being smart about their image. I dont know I am torn. I believe what Pink says, there is being sexy and that is fine but you can also be smart at the same time. many of my female friends and sexy and smart. They are not oil and water.

Well, I feel like everyone should get this album and listen to it because it is pretty good.

I went poop in my bed, so i put it on the tv

Ok, SO i feel the title needs explanation. It is from Scrubs. I dont normally watch the show but Grace and Leo had it on while we were looking at cars and that was the funniest line i have heard in a while. It was said by a little kid to his parents who just found out they were pregnant.

Ok so anyway. SpeedyGonursy and I went down to Elizabethtown, IN to go to Ceasar's casino. I had never been to casino when i could actually gamble. I wanted to gamble a bit and see what it is like. It was fun but when we were standing in line for a member card to get benefits, there were these women behind us that i wanted to just tell to shut up. They were white trash mid 40yo women with horrbie dye jobs. THere was just one old guy filling out the forms but more people were supposed to be more people coming. Well these women were standing behind us and just saying things like, I cant believe there is only one person. they are loosing money from this and just bitching. it was sooo pointless because yes it was annying that there was one person but it was not his fault or the other employees were right there. when somoene did come up to start logging in, they yelled and clapped and then were upset because it took time to log in but i mean come on, i am sure he can not just do it in one second. OK soafter that were went down to play. We found the penny slots, i know big money. I lost some money adn then SpeedyGonursy gave me 10 because i think she was annoyed thaqt i was watching her haha. I stretched that ten bucks out for like 3 hours. I was at one point up like 60 bucks but of course i kept playing and lost it all. Oh well, it was fun and i get my money back so its all good.

I am sad, The amazing race is ending tonight for the season. I am hoping that the Hippies or Ray and Yolanda win. I think it will be the hippies but i could see it being the frat boys.

TiVo TiVo Tivo

I bought this new TiVo and can I just say this, I LOVE TIVO! It is my happy machine. I used to have TiVo but the modem got burnt out and I was poor at the time so I did not get a replacement. I have been wanting to get one but I was waiting until they caught up with cable and you could record two shows at once and watch one while recording another. They finally came out with it woo hoo. This is a picture of mine, isnt it pretty. I am thinking of using it as my Christmas card. Is that wierd? Oh well if you have one, you will understand. Well now I can watch stuff and plus i can listen to my music on it, look at weather and traffic, which is actually nice to have. I kinda though, oh I will never use that but i have looked at it every morning since i now have a commute at rush hour. Oh on that note, i am soooo happy that i found a 30 minute way to work. At sat at 116th st the other morning for 25 minutes going two miles an hour. not fun. Ok So now that i have TiVo, my like should be good now right? No. I moved my bedroom around and the Tv is broken. I blame LesboDyke for the bad energy she has put into my life.

Ok so anyone, i love TiVo, you all know it and you should all get one, but put me down as a reference because i need TiVo points because i need merchandise from TiVo.

Shut up Grace

Ok, So i am writing a post. I was going to start off bitching at Grace because I post way more often than she does but then i decided I should actually look at her blog before I say anything that I would regret. Of course she has posted!

Well I am pretty boring. Have been trying to get organized in the house. I moved my room around yesterday to make it more functional for me. Ok well not so much for me but for Oscar. I felt that he did not feel comfortable in the room so I moved it around to get him more room. I felt really bad last night, it was about 11 and he was sound asleep, kinda snoring on my floor. I was going to go to bed and debated whether to wake him up or let him sleep. I decided to move him because i did not think they entire zoo should be within two rooms. I also did not want him to wake up and decide to eat cat food. I figured that the liquid poo later in the day was not worth letting him sleep. I felt really bad though. although he probably just went in the bedroom and fell asleep.

Feminazi has really been having the interesting week. Well I am sure that everyone knows about LesboDyke. Well if you are not, i will give you the short story. Feminazi and I took a gender class this semseter adn the LesboDyke was in the class and is the stereotype of the of Dyke, not a lesbian, a dyke. Just want to make that perfectly clear. She is very religious and is against homosexuality, not homosexuals but homosexuality, cause those are easy to seperate. She and I have had many discussions, yea that is what we will call them. She and I obviously disagree about what the bible and god says. I talked to god this morning and she told me that LesboDyke was completly wrong. Well I think that she is trying to hide that she likes women by "keepin it real wit Jesus", yes that is what she actually says and signs her emails with. and I did mean Wit not with. Well she does not seem to like the idea of logic. she does not follow it and will ignore flaws in her argument when logic points out how wrong she is. Well, Feminazi gets an email the other day from her talking about her relgious views and stating that she wants to be friends with her. I mean what the hell? Well it goes on and Feminazi ends the email stream by stating that she does not want to be friends with her because of her views on things such as homosexuality and that she could not be friends with her because of them. I have respect for that because I had friends that could not get past it and quit being friends with me because of that, oh i will talk about one of them in a second. So now, LesboDyke keeps sending her email after email after email trying to be friends and get her to go to their church where she states are former Mos, theives and CHILD MOLESTORS. She willingly attends and takes her child to a place with child molestors. HELLO!!!!!!

Ok so former best friend. in high school was Mr academic, FLUNKED out of college not once but TWICE. I really am thinking of making a nice copy of my diploma and writing on HA, LOOK WHAT I HAVE, SUCK IT BITCH!

woohoo, i am done

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Long time

Wow, So it has been a long time since i posted. School has been crazy and then moving as well. My own fault, I should have moved when my lease was up but i was opposed to the idea for some reason. I need to learn to be less stubborn. I get an idea in my head and wont let it go. I think it will be odd living up in Noblesville with Grace and ummm, her husband (i forget if i have a nickname for him or not, and i refuse to call him Leo). I dont think it will be bad but i have to get used to living with other people and so will they. I have lived alone for three years but I will have to live with someone someday, so I might as well do it. I will also have to get used to the commute. I want to get a part time job on top of my glorified av boy job so I can buy a new car. I want a Honda or Toyota. They are more expensive but better on gas millage. The Prius, gets 60 MPG in the CITY! the city people. that is insane. The honda insight also get 60. plus it get better milage on the highway, although it is only a two seater which wouldnt thrill me. Well I dont know where i want to work. I dread going back to retail but i dont know where i can get a job that will work around my schedule. I also dont want to work for shit money. I am over that shit but i dont want to be a manager because i just dont care that much. I want to go, do my job to the best of my ability and then go home. I dont want to have to think about. I dont know.

Everyone that reads this needs to spread the rumor that ALL GAY MEN CANT SWIM. My friend feminazi and I are trying ot start a stereotype for gay men and see if we can see it on tv. Wel figure it wont take long, get a few people who beleive and in a year or two we should see it on tv. I am sure that the religious right will say thats why we shouldnt be able to marry. if god wants us to marry then he would have allowed us to swim.

Alright, when i started this blog, i felt like i had a lot to say but now i cant remember it so i am signing off.

Second Blog in as many minutes

So, I was thinking today. Everyday when i come into work I have to go to another building to get keys to the office. I always see this guy and think to myself "I hate gay people". I say that a lot and I feel now though I should explain what I mean so people understand. I am not a gay man. I am a man who happens to be gay. I do not define myself by my homosexuality. It is part, not all of who i am. Although, I do not see myself that way, the world sees me by the definitions and stereotypes that the gay community puts forward. The stereotype of a gay man is a "girly", feminine, flaming, out there, bar fly who does not have goals and only cares about sex, drugs and sex. I do not feel as though that definition fits me but i am judged because of what others put out there. I have goals. I have a life other than the fact that i am gay. I know that I will have to work harder because of that stereotype and it will not change in the near future. I hope that by being myself and achieving my goals, I am able to show people that there are differences. I will not relent from defending myself if I am attacked for being gay. I will stand up for myself. being gay is part of who i am. When i see a gay man who is defining himself by his homosexuality or fitting every stereotype, i get annoyed. I can think of many instances where someone may be very nice but they completly define themselves in that way. Feminazi (Formally Squidgy) and I and one of her friends, Beth (I cant think of a good nickname for her), were at the local coffee shop. One of Beth's friends came in and sat down with us. I met him when he worked for three days at the baggage. He defines himself by his homosexuality. He may be a very nice guy but everything he does is based on the stereotypes that are put forward. When Feminazi and I were leaving, I stated that i can not stand him and that is why. She seemed offended by it but I knwo that if it were a woman sitting there taking similar actions about female stereotypes, she would have been annoyed. In my dealing with him which is limited I will admit, he may have been a nice guy but I can not and will not accept that he is the stereotype. I do not believe that people choose this. I think homosexuals, men in particular, who seem to fit the stereotype on the outside do not truly enjoy their life. While they are acting in a stereotypical way, they are covering for a life of regret and low self esteem. The whole problem with the gay community is that we all suffer from low self-esteem. How can you not when you spend years of your life hiding who you are because you are told it is wrong, immoral and a sin. I had and still have at times an immense low self esteem problem. Some people cover it up with drugs, others with countless meaningless sexual encounters or like i did, with food. I think why i am fat is because i am gay. food is comforting. Sex can be comforting to some people because they feel validated by it. They feel that someone wants them and it makes them feel better but i always want to ask, when they leave do you still feel better? the person always leaves and they are along again. gay men hate being alone and rarely are. I think it is hard to learn to love yourself, but you can never truly love somoene if you dont know how to be alone and love yourself. I do not enjoy the one night stand because you are always alone in the morning so what does it serve.
People tell me thatsex is needed and i used to argue with that but now i just give up. I do not believe that sex is a need, it is a want. I want sex, I do not need it. I can live my life without it, until I have something more than a one night stand, although it is more fun to have it.
Gay men annoy me. I want to surround myself with men who happen to be gay. I dont hate the people that may be the wrong word, i dont like what they represent. They represent everything i stand against. Some may show who they are but others may just be showing who they want the word to see. We need to give up the facades we put out for others. Well, I think that is it. please post comments, I want to hear them.

Washington DC

Well, Dynasty, Painterboy and I got back from DC this morning. It was fun but was also nice to sleep in my own bed. I am still surprised how comfortable the sofabed was compared to other sofabeds. We walked all over the place, my foot is still killing me. I dont know what I did to my toe but it looked pretty bad at a time. I think just rubbing it was probably what did it. I dont know how Painterboy walked around in cheap Abercrombie Flip Flops all day (MOre about those later) We got to DC about 930 Thursday morning. As we were driving in, Marine One Flew over and that was awesome. PB (Short for PainterBoy) got a picture of it and it was good compared we were in the car and it was moving. I wish we could have gotten closer but the experience was cool. We checked into the hotel and were impressed for the money how nice it was. DY and PB took a nap and I just couldnt. We decided to walk places or take the subway. We were about 7 block from George and the White house so we walked down. it was a beautiful day to be walking and walking and walking and walking. I think you get the idea. We saw the WH and that was Awesome, i will live there someday. We found the subway and took it to Arlington so we could see JFK and Jackie and the changing of the guard at the Tomb of the Unknown Soilder. We must have taken the long way up because it took a good half hour, forty five minutes to get up and then when we were done, it took maybe five minutes. Ok I may be exagerating a little but still it was nuts. We then went to the Capitol. We walked around it and Dy was all ready to keep going but PB and I revolted and demanded food. I was really crappy because i was tired. I dont think DY got it but oh well. I just wanted to go back and take a nap. They ate at Fudruckers, which we ate at the next day adn was pretty good. We went home and slept for a bit and then went to Dupont Circle to see what was up. We went back to the hotel and ordered a pizza and went to bed.

The next day we got up, at like 11 and went to the art museum which was freaking huge. PB i think was super excited. We went to the Smithsonian and the mall. I expected the mall to be nicer but i guess everyone walking on it and stuff made it pretty run down. There were some hot guys there playing sports. We saw the giant penis, oops i mean the washington monument. That was cool. We started walking down to see Lincoln but i had hurt my toe the day before and just wanted to rest. I sat down watched the boys play rugby. I think DY was jealous i got to do that LOL. I really think he thinks thats why i stopped, although it wasnt, just a plus. We went back to the hotel for a bit and then were going to eat at Dupont circle. We ate at California Pizza Kitchen. Ok the deal with tthat. We saw it the night before but they were closed. Painterboy and Dy were all excited about it and I thought they were nuts like normal because it was a pizza place, not named pizza express so how good could it be. Ok so you know i love the express but for different reasons, it is my comfort pizza. California Pizza Kitchen is Awesome. I hate veggies on pizza and it was so good. I hate chicken on pizza cause it seems wrong cause i love chicken, but chicken and pizza just seems wrong somehow. Well this was sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo good. I just wanna say, if you have the option to eat there it is quite good. I want a second, more conveniant one in indy, the one here is a lot of work to go to. As for the picture, i think painterboy was just excited LOL

We got up the next morning and i misse dbreakfast buy like minutes, minutes people, do you know how annoying that is. This guy on the elavator was nice though and let me have some of his. Ok that sounds bad but it really wasnt. It was amuffin and it was wrapped. He was a nice guy and cute as all get out.

Once they finally got up, and i do mean finally, we went to the Potomac Mills Mall. Ok the thing is HUGE, HUGE PEOPLE it was sort of an outlet. some outlet stores and others not so much. it had an IKEA which is always fun. I bought pretty boring stuff. SO on Friday night, i walked around and it was raining and i was wearing flipflops to help no put pressure on my toe, so i kept slipping, like the bottom had not traction. I ended up walking back from the subway barefoot because it was easier. Although was not completly fun. This parking lot had likes of broken class put into the design, it seemed stupid to me and it kinda hurt but better than falling on my ass. Well overall that trip was fun. Some of us had a small stupid tiff on the car ride home. no need to get into it. We made it back alright. I drove like 4 hours on the way home while the other two slept. Dy i dont htink even woke up in that time. PB kept waking up and asking if i was alright. it was kinda funny. Well I think that is everything. Some pictures are on here but they are just ones i feel are cool or relavent

I HATE GROUP PROJECTS

So ok, Everyone that was in college can definatly relate, I am sure to the story I am about to tell. I am in a class right now where we have to do group projects. I hate group projects, just the idea of relying on other for my grade bothers me. If i fuck up, fine but if I do a great job and they fuck up then the shit will hit the fan. I decided that with this group, I would kind of take charge in hopes that things will get done. Well in theory, it was a great idea. In reality, it has not worked out. the one flaw in my plan is that, even when you are in charge and tell people what needs to be done, you plan still relys on them actually doing it. I said I would put our proposal together and send it in. that way I knew what it said beforehand and knew it was done correctly. Well, I asked them to have it to me by Sunday at noon so I had time to do it. Well noon rolls around and NOTHING! I did not start getting stuff until around 5. Well now it is the next morning and I am still missing three whole sections from the paper and half of the major section. I am sure I am missing a section or two because the person is waiting on information from others. I will say that two people do have everything to me. Those are not who i am upset with. I am upset because its just the proposal and we can not get things in. I have to have this stuff by 4 to send in. If they do not have it to me, I am going to write crappy sections just to fill them in because as long as all the sections are there, it can be redone, i was trying to avoid that but I guess that is what this is for. The worst part about this is that we all get the same grade. I mean have us each grade each other so it gives a way to learn what people actually did. I am just so frustrated, I hate group projects because there are always people like this. Its so stupid. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Drama Drama Drama

So I went out to the club last night again. I went down with Burt, Ernie and Forgetfull. Forgetfull was acting wierd last night. Well, he was talking about Dynasty and I dont know what he meant by it. When we got there, there was a pagent going on. We waited for it to finish and went down and looked for a seat. We did not find out so we stood closer to the stage.

Well, Apparently it is a rule that here has to be at least one fat, faghag there in a horrible outfit. The last time I was there there was the girl i meantioned in a earlier post. Well last night there was another. She was a bigger girl, of course and she has a shirt on that was again to tight and showed he fat hanging over her jeans but that was not the worst part, the jeans just were HORRIBLE. They did not fit her well, made her look like she had no butt. But where the butt was, there were cutouts at the top down about half way down. It was just not what i wanted to see. It was so bad, i mean who thinks that would look good, especially on bigger girls. I mean i know i am fat so i dont wear what the twinks do.

So anyone, now that my bitching about that is over. Dynasty was there and so was his ex, Pharmy and Pharmys new THING, and i do mean THING, dipshit. Well Dynasty has been going through a lot of shit with Pharmy and he of course had to be there and they had to rub each others backs and shit. I mean like they are a fucking loving happy couple or something. It was so sweet i wanted to vomit, on them. I really wanted to go over to them and say something to him because I have no respect for him. He has treated Dy like crap recently and he deserves better. I will give it that stupid mistakes were made on both sides when they were together but GET OVER IT. If you can not fogive and move past it then why are you even friends. I mean, everyone has done something to someone and if you can not move past it then you shouldnt be friends. I hold on to shit longer than anyone and i have moved past things in the past and i dont mean with Dy just with anyone. Painterboy and I were going to go slash Pharmy's tires but we didnt, well i didnt, i dont know what happened after i left. I am just mad that Dy has had to go through this shit for no reason. Dy, you know i say this with all the love in the world but you can do SO much better than him. He is just not worth it. I am glad i left because had i stayed I would have gone and told him what i thought and also kicked his little bitches ass. I mean dipshit is just using him and thats sad because as much as i dont like pharmy, he deserves better too. He doesnt deserve Dynasty after this though. There is someone out there that will be so much better. Its just hard to see a friend go through this for no reason. It just seems like Pharmy is fucking with him in some perverse joke or to get back at him or something. Well I am done bitching.

people

So, I have two main topics today to blog about. the first being. FLIP-FLOPS ARE NOT FORMAL SHOES I just do not understand when people, mainly women, wear them with a very nice outfit. I saw a girl today and was wearing a very cute outfit but then had flipflops and they matched in color so I know she picked them out for that reason. It just kills me that people see those as formal wear, just because they are the same color does not mean you should wear them

The second thing is that, people driving. I had a woman yesterday that I had to merge into her lane before getting on the interstate. She started to honk a lot at me and so i flipped her off. Well then as I was getting over so i got on 70 and not 65, she got over with me and then was on my ass flicking her lights at me. I mean let it go. So she was on my ass in bumper to bumper traffic. I in my infinate wisdom hit my breaks, she did not hit me but still rode my ass. I mean come on, dont be stupid. Plus she was on her cell phone. I just thought what i bitch.

The second stupid person was on campus. I pulled into my parking space and then a few seconds later this guy did. He takes three trys to make his car straight and then when he gets out, hits my car with his door and just walks on. I mean he knew i was there, he could have just mouthed sorry or something. I went and looked at it and he dented it a little bit. I mean i normally would not care but he said nothing. NOTHING.

If you choke a Smurf, What color would it turn?

So I have not blogged in a long time. I am moving in with Grace and her husband, I dont remember his nickname right now. I think it will be interesting. I know it will be better than that the last place with Idiot because he was a freak. If you are roommates with somoene, you are not rude to their mom. Come on. He also would not let me eat my dinner or whatever i made until the kitchen was clean. I mean that is just stupid. The house is also bigger and has a lot less crap in it. I dont htink i will feel like i can not leave my room. The cat being there should be very interesting. Oscar-the-dog will love it but i dont know what Neo-the-cat will think. I think he will adjust over time and be ok. he will stay in my room when i am not there and probably for a the first few days so he gets used to things. I also dont know what i will take there. The stuff i think i need wont fit well in the room. We will have to see. It is going to be a lot cheaper even with having to pay3 months currently to get out of my lease. I will miss living downtown and near burt and ernie, and dynasty but i will be downotown ALL the time.

Fat club is going ok. I won last week but Grace was a sore loser and would not give up so we are double or nothing this week. I dont know if i will do well this week. We will see.

Dynasty is driving my nuts because he keeps putting these status messages up that say like "WOW" or "What a night" and Now he has "Who the fuck is ..." I wont say the name in case my larger group of readers knows who it is. It is kind of annying to read those and not be in the loop. It is probably something, i will hear who it is and not really care but still. He is at work but i texted him so we will see if he replys.

I am really bogged down with school right now. I need to make some serious progress on homework this week and weekend. I am really going to buckle down and get stuff done, as we can see while i writing a pretty long blog entry. I have group projects and i am basically the leader of the group. No one seems to want to do stuff but my grade is not going to be lowered by these people. Some i know will work hard to get a good grade but others dont show up to class and one leaves early every day and so has never talked to us.

I was in my history class yesterday and I realized what they permenant name for Squidgy should be. Feminazi! She likes it and its describes her but with a way over dramitization. I mean she could be considered that but then also she really isnt, I mean she took boriqua's (her husband) name which is a no-no in the "Feminazi" groups. boriqua is a nice guy. He helps me with my computer and puts up with me asking stupid questions.

Well that is all for now. I will leave you with the eternal question. If you choke a Smurf, What color would it turn?

Mechanics

So, I am pissed! I took my car in two weeks ago to have two new tires put on and align the car. Well it was not aligned. I took it in to a different Goodyear to have it aligned properly. it was also making a strange grinding noise from one of the rear tires. I get a call today that I need new front break pads, Fine, and the rear caliber and strut needs to be replaced. 899!!!!!! I dont know if i want to put that kind of money into my car. I called them back to tell them not to do it and i would take it somewhere else. They were kind of shitty and it has now been 5 hours since i called and it is not ready. I am getting pissed. Plus when i called they said that i could just fix the back and it would cost 539. So over 300 for just the front pads. That seems totally rediculous. I am not a car person but even i know when something is high.

AHHHHH

IUPUI is a great school in some aspects. Unlike traditional colleges, I think I learned more from failing classes, having to miss for work, having to work and being burnt out than I did from going to classes. I know how to support myself, pay my bills and work hard. I would have a higher GPA if I went to IU or ISU or something but I would not be nearly as independent as I am today. I am happy with my choice because i know the little things that, when i graduate in 2052, will give me an advantage over graduates from IU or traditional schools because i can do the little stuff. I know that the bills have to paid monthly, although i still think that is crap, i mean i just paid that nad they want me to pay it again, what is that about?

Ok now on to my bitching. IUPUI has no consistancy in their advisors. I have taken classe sthat dont do anything for my degree. I have three classes that do NOTHING. Now i am scheduling for the summer and fall (god willing my last undergrad semester) and nothing is working out. Idont know if classes will work becuase they have this one class listed under Writing but technically it is a creative writing class and you can only take of those, which i am in now. IN communication they cancelled a class this semester which i really wnated to take and now I dont know what to do. an option is to take an extra semester and make communication a second major. I Dont know. AHHHHHHH

School

So I am sitting in my empty classroom that will in an hour host my class. I am here early because, well, i have nothing better to do in this hour. I call mama to say hey so she doesnt think i am dead. I know she likes to hear from so i am thre to help although it has occurred to me that mayb ei am doing to to much. Pompus (my sister) is not expected to call this much, i mean she is expected to call but not like i am. I guess that is the price I pay for being born first. She gets away with stuff I would not. I told my mom, I wanted I wanted to be put on things and know where everything was and she wanted to put pompus on stuff. I am fine with that, I think, although I dont know if I trust her to have that stuff. I gues I will have to see what she is wanting to put her name on. I just dont think she will listen to me and discuss what she does before we do it. I also dont want to share it with her because I dont feel that she will do what the folks want, she will do what she wants. I may not want what the folks want but they will get what they want. Its all a morbid topic that I dont want to talk about but it needs to be done. It just showing how much of an adult I am becoming. God that is sick.

I find out about the internships next week and i am not thnking I have a good chance. I really want them but I dont want to get my hopes up. I think it will be determined by how many qualified people applied and all. It was not promoted heavily and it took searching to find it so I am thinking people may not have known about it.

Stupid

So, I was looking at the forums on the Amazing Race today and these people are nuts. They are looking for patterns in the background pictures of the contestants to see who makes it to the top 5 or 6. They are going to take the picture beforehand so there is no way to know who will win then. Unless of course you believe the Rob and Amber/Uchena and Joyce theory that CBS intruded to make it a race, which would make it better but i mean rob and amber still lost when they were in the city. I dont really want to know who they are saying will win, but I want to look. I am reading bios on CBS website. BJ, on of the hippies graduated from Harvard! HARVARD! I am impressed. They come off as so laid back but that is something there. I really like them. They are having fun on the race and i think that is the best way to win and not kill each other. When Grace and i get on, we will have to do it that way to. (But who are we kidding, we will still yell and cuss at each other. A month together, OMG....... Hugs and puppies sweety ;) ) I also like the nerd David and Lori. I think they are hilarious because they are such nerds. Lake and Michelle need to go, they are annoying, they are not as bad as Jonathon and Victoria but they are bad. On the plus side with them is, i dont mind seeing him half naked, whereas Jonathon I did not really want to see. Eric and Jeremy also annoy me because they are cocky and sexist without really having reasons to be. They think they are hot and although not bad to look at, they are not all that. I think their dicks will eventually screw them up. There are other teams I like but I wont go into them because lets be honest, Grace is the only one who has gotten this far.

My other thing i want to bitch about is there guy in Nebraska whose roommates were having a party while he was gone and had the cops called. When they pulled the guy over, they arrested him for the charges because his name was on the lease. His roommates got fines he got 30 days in jail. He is 21, in college and is working and is serving longer sentences than people who are caught drinking and driving. The judge says he wanted to set an example for other because people could die from going to these parties. I am all for ending drug and achohal abuse by college students but punishing this one guy for something done when he was not there is ridiculous. Arent there worse crimes out there than having a loud party. I am not saying let these things go but the boy was not even home (click on the picture for the full story). Children are being molested, killed, and beaten out there, women have being raped, killed, forced to be slaves. Gay men are killed for being gay. Black men and women are killed for being black. People are murdered every day for pocketchange or just because. I just dont understand. This is stupid!

Thought of the day

What dining room set defines me as a person?

Queens

So I went out to the gay bar last night. It was fun. Dynasty and PainterBoy were there. PainterBoy brought his hags. They were nice. A little haggy for my taste. I can take a good joke but i mean I dont like the girls that dont seem to understand the whole being gay thing. I know it is a joke but it seems like they are in love. I am just so happy none of my friends that are straight girls act like that. Its ok to be bitter when you see the drag queen has a better body than you, i am bitter about it to. Dont be bitter that all the guys in the bar are hot and gay. YOUR IN A GAY BAR!!!!!! DUH

So there was a girl there last night and she was a hag. She is a bigger girl but the thing that bugged me was that she was wearing a shirt that was to short so her belly, love handles and back fat were hanging out. It was just bad and she did not seem to know or care. She was there with some gays and what gay would let there hag go out like that. I mean none of my girlfriends (god i hate using that term) would go out of the house like that. I dont care if that is the only green thing she would have on St Pats day, it just would not happen. I know all my friends wouldnt want to wear that but to go to a gay bar dressed like that. Its a gay bar we are all super critical and i dont want to see that. Its just not flattering. Dont wear things that are to small for you it just makes you look bigger. If you wear things that fit in all the right places then you are going to look better and feel better. If she is happy looking like that at a gay bar, more power to her but no one i am going out with would look like that. (Grace, see i told you girls go out in BAD clothing to gay bars, i am just so glad you have higher standards than that)

Personal Space

Why do people insist on breaking the personal space that people have around them. Well, my molesting at Kroger is an extreme example of people invading my personal space. The second would be the guy at Meijer that was standing so close to me I think I could feel him breathing on me. Why do people feel like they must stand that close to someone else that they dont know. If I were dating someone or even friends with someone then invading that space is different but i perfect stranger at Meijer, COME ON.