Well, after much debate and thought, i have come to a very difficult decision. This blog post will be my last on this website. I have decided that i will move my blog to my MySpace profile. I am trying to narrow the profiles i have online. Myspace offers me opportunities and features that blogger does not. I feel that my loyal reader will be able to fully get my personality based on my profile. I will be moving over the nicknames and such. I feel that myspace can be a good way to meet people and stay connected with friends of the past. I also feel like if we do not support sites like myspace, then it and its parent company, NewsCorp, may fail and lead to the downfall of western society. For the sake of society, i must now move my blog over to myspace.
Oh yea, also, Blogger is a pain in the butt sometimes and i would post more but it takes forever sometimes.
The link to my new blog is
http://blog.myspace.com/palam_gauisus
9.21.2006
9.08.2006
FREAKS!
Men are FREAKS! That is all I am saying. Who asks you for sex in a dirty disgusting bathroom at CAV. I mean come on. What do I look like? (Ok dont answer that, it was rhetorical) People seriously need help.
Great Neighbors
Ok, So everyone is firmiliar with my neighbors and how nice some of them are. Well I have a story to top others of how good some of them are. From the prior story, for those of you who constantly check my blog for new posts and get mad when there is nothing new on here, mary Kay across the streets next door neighbor who i thought might have called the police on me but then came up and said she didnt and was very ncie about it, has kind of become our best friend in the neighborhood because well she is actually normal, unlike some people. We are going to call her Smutty because she is a self describe smutty romance novel addict. Well anyway, Grace decided that she needed shelves in the office (I didnt know what i thought but we had decided a while back to put those rails up and have moveable shelves becuase they were much more functional) and so off to te homo depot we go. Me, grace and Leo (seriously, I want another name for him but a lack of creativity and effort has stalled the option) go off in grace's 97 Honda Accord, Not thinking that we are about to buy long things. We are at homo Depot and were find the shelves, argue about how to install them and figure out exactly what we are going to do. we give Leo a dirty look when he talks about cutting the shelves down because lets me honest, it would have been an ordeal. He would take time, Grace and I would get frustrated and we would all not be speaking by the end of the evening. but anyway, we go to pay, it was a little more expensive than we thought but really nto bad for what we got. We start walking out to the car and grace says "How are we going to fit all fo this in the car" Of course her car doesnt have the 60/40 split which would be functional and the fit hasnt been purchased yet. There is a debate about who will be waiting behind while the other two went home. Leo and I discuss it but i think both of us are leary that the other two really wont come back. (You know it is an option that we would forget LOL) Well we end up folding the seat down and Grace sits on it with the wood for the ride home.Well we get home and as we are pulling into driveway, their is a ton of water. Well before we left, Leo had said that I lef thte hose on because their was water in the side yard and that he had to turn it all the way off. Well I thought it was odd because it had been forever since i watered the yard but hey, shit happens. Well, when we get back, water is everywhere, we have a lake for a side yard because he turned it all the way on, (it leaks if you dont turn it all the way off, its an annoying piece of shit) the best part about this story is the line he in all seriousness tells Grace. "somoene came back over and turned it back on" he said it bery seriousl and of course i have been making fun it for like the entire week, like i would expect him to if i had said it. I still dont think the side yard is completly dry. I promise i will get to the great neighbor story but you have to know the whole day. Well we start to put up the shelves, after we take care of finishing some other stuff, like fixing curtin rods an dputting up a towel bar. well we start to put them up and i say, i want Ice Cream because well, I ALWAYS want Ice Cream, I have a huge sweet tooth, I wont try to deny it. MMMMMmmmmmm Ice Cream, I should go get some, BRB..... Ok so anyway, grace looks at me and say she is going to go ask smutty. I thought she would laugh at us and say no. Well Grace comes back and i was all prepared for her to say no and yet she said YES. She went and got us Ice Cream from Marsh. How awesome is that. We didnt have to do anything for her. Well ok, we offered to make her a martini but that is nothing. That is so cool. No other neighbor went and got us ice cream. ok, that seems like a huge letdown after all the other stuff. Oh well, its my blog, kiss my A$$
9.01.2006
Work Work Work
Well, I went 
home to the 'rents for about a week. I told them that I would do a lot of work. When the folks bought their house it was a very dark hunter green, inside and out. Green siding, carpeting, painting. everything! Seriously, i like green but this was overkill. Well they got four lots with it and most were severly overgrown. There were a ton of bushes that were overgrown and everywhere. Well over the time, my parents and grandparents had cut them down to clear the grouds. There were three left a few years ago until just one was left in front of the fireplace. It had not become severly overgrown, becoming taller to than the house. My mom hated it so I told her that she could not see out the front door. Well a
s you can see in the first picture how the bush was way too big for the house. Then you can see how the bush came down over the next few hours. Once it was gone, I powerwashed the house and you can really tell on the fireplace, which had like 18 yearrs of gunk on the siddes. You can also see on the steps, they are a sort of tan color, with a little bit of green moss, EWWWW. Well i washed those and then turned back to their older color of red. it was pretty wierd becuase they were fire engine red at one point, why? i dont get it. The first picture down here is what i built, Isnt it nice. You are a little impressed that i did that 57 bricks, weighing 25lbs each. Yes i hauled them and moved them. How 
manly. I even had dirt under my nails, hehe. The second picture if of the steps which were gross and then of the first paint color. Yes i said first. There were three in all. YES
THREE! I went to Menard, which is NOT Home Depot (I love the Depot, I hate Menards and especially LOWES). Well they said i had to pick from 16 colors and thats it, and this was the best. I was to ammused, well i tho
ught it would be ok and Mom swore she would like it, of course she didnt. Well we went back to Menards and the guy tells me, that i could get it any color i wanted. I WAS PISSED. I wasted 25 bucks because we got the color I had origianally wanted. (Which is in the third picture down here.) The last picture, seriously, the last is the final paint color. Well the last picture i have of it, it is a darker red now. but it looks so much better. it will be better when their is dirt and plants in it. Even though they will be primarily green.
home to the 'rents for about a week. I told them that I would do a lot of work. When the folks bought their house it was a very dark hunter green, inside and out. Green siding, carpeting, painting. everything! Seriously, i like green but this was overkill. Well they got four lots with it and most were severly overgrown. There were a ton of bushes that were overgrown and everywhere. Well over the time, my parents and grandparents had cut them down to clear the grouds. There were three left a few years ago until just one was left in front of the fireplace. It had not become severly overgrown, becoming taller to than the house. My mom hated it so I told her that she could not see out the front door. Well a
s you can see in the first picture how the bush was way too big for the house. Then you can see how the bush came down over the next few hours. Once it was gone, I powerwashed the house and you can really tell on the fireplace, which had like 18 yearrs of gunk on the siddes. You can also see on the steps, they are a sort of tan color, with a little bit of green moss, EWWWW. Well i washed those and then turned back to their older color of red. it was pretty wierd becuase they were fire engine red at one point, why? i dont get it. The first picture down here is what i built, Isnt it nice. You are a little impressed that i did that 57 bricks, weighing 25lbs each. Yes i hauled them and moved them. How 
manly. I even had dirt under my nails, hehe. The second picture if of the steps which were gross and then of the first paint color. Yes i said first. There were three in all. YES THREE! I went to Menard, which is NOT Home Depot (I love the Depot, I hate Menards and especially LOWES). Well they said i had to pick from 16 colors and thats it, and this was the best. I was to ammused, well i tho
ught it would be ok and Mom swore she would like it, of course she didnt. Well we went back to Menards and the guy tells me, that i could get it any color i wanted. I WAS PISSED. I wasted 25 bucks because we got the color I had origianally wanted. (Which is in the third picture down here.) The last picture, seriously, the last is the final paint color. Well the last picture i have of it, it is a darker red now. but it looks so much better. it will be better when their is dirt and plants in it. Even though they will be primarily green.
8.31.2006
What makes you SO special?
Ok, So I have a HUGE complaint about people. Who do certain people think that they are so special that rules dont apply to them. There is a no smoking ban on campus now. Fine, I dont neccessarily agree with it, i think that there should be a place for people to smoke if they choose. I dont want to have to breath it in if I dont want to. People shouldnt be able to walk and smoke because then if i am right behind them, i have no choice but to follow them. If they smoke outside the doors then i have to walk through it. I personally think that there should be areas designated for smoking. They should be clearly marked and if i walk through them, then that is my own fault. So what makes these people who walk on campus they are special enough to make me breath in their smoke. yes i have smoked a few times beucase i would prefer not to breath it in all the time.
This is followed by the people who park in two spots because they dont want to more. Or the ones who park right up in front of the door at the grocecy store so they dont have to walk that far. Granted, what theya re getting might be important to them but what i am getting is important to me and i should get to do that too. When did politness die? Why do people feel like they are allowed to be bitches and not get confronted on it. If i am rude or do something wrong, fine, i did it and i will admit my mistake or agrue that i am right (usually the later becuase i HATE admitting i am wrong, Shut up Grace, you are the same way, so dont type it in the comment line). Mary Kay doesnt feel like she should apoligize to me for her pettyness and why not? She made a mistake, and an ass of herself. Talk to people. If you have a problem then find a solution. You are not so special in my work that you deserve special treatment. If you thitnk that, then i feel sorry for you because you dont get it. I just want to ask people that. What makes you so special?
This is followed by the people who park in two spots because they dont want to more. Or the ones who park right up in front of the door at the grocecy store so they dont have to walk that far. Granted, what theya re getting might be important to them but what i am getting is important to me and i should get to do that too. When did politness die? Why do people feel like they are allowed to be bitches and not get confronted on it. If i am rude or do something wrong, fine, i did it and i will admit my mistake or agrue that i am right (usually the later becuase i HATE admitting i am wrong, Shut up Grace, you are the same way, so dont type it in the comment line). Mary Kay doesnt feel like she should apoligize to me for her pettyness and why not? She made a mistake, and an ass of herself. Talk to people. If you have a problem then find a solution. You are not so special in my work that you deserve special treatment. If you thitnk that, then i feel sorry for you because you dont get it. I just want to ask people that. What makes you so special?
8.30.2006
Ten reasons
10 Reasons Why Gay Marriage is Wrong
01) Being gay is not natural. Real Americans always reject unnatural things like eyeglasses, polyester, and air conditioning.
02) Gay marriage will encourage people to be gay, in the same way that hanging around tall people will make you tall.
03) Legalizing gay marriage will open the door to all kinds of crazy behavior. People may even wish to marry their pets because a dog has legal standing and can sign a marriage contract.
04) Straight marriage has been around a long time and hasn't changed at all; women are still property, blacks still can't marry whites, and divorce is still illegal.
05) Straight marriage will be less meaningful if gay marriage were allowed; the sanctity of Britany Spears' 55-hour just-for-fun marriage would be destroyed.
06) Straight marriages are valid because they produce children. Gay couples, infertile couples, and old people shouldn't be allowed to marry because our orphanages aren't full yet, and the world needs more children.
07) Obviously gay parents will raise gay children, since straight parents only raise straight children.
08) Gay marriage is not supported by religion. In a theocracy like ours, the values of one religion are imposed on the entire country. That's why we have only one religion in America.
09) Children can never succeed without a male and a female role model at home. That's why we as a society expressly forbid single parents to raise children.
10) Gay marriage will change the foundation of society; we could never adapt to new social norms. Just like we haven't adapted to cars, the service-sector economy, or longer life spans.
01) Being gay is not natural. Real Americans always reject unnatural things like eyeglasses, polyester, and air conditioning.
02) Gay marriage will encourage people to be gay, in the same way that hanging around tall people will make you tall.
03) Legalizing gay marriage will open the door to all kinds of crazy behavior. People may even wish to marry their pets because a dog has legal standing and can sign a marriage contract.
04) Straight marriage has been around a long time and hasn't changed at all; women are still property, blacks still can't marry whites, and divorce is still illegal.
05) Straight marriage will be less meaningful if gay marriage were allowed; the sanctity of Britany Spears' 55-hour just-for-fun marriage would be destroyed.
06) Straight marriages are valid because they produce children. Gay couples, infertile couples, and old people shouldn't be allowed to marry because our orphanages aren't full yet, and the world needs more children.
07) Obviously gay parents will raise gay children, since straight parents only raise straight children.
08) Gay marriage is not supported by religion. In a theocracy like ours, the values of one religion are imposed on the entire country. That's why we have only one religion in America.
09) Children can never succeed without a male and a female role model at home. That's why we as a society expressly forbid single parents to raise children.
10) Gay marriage will change the foundation of society; we could never adapt to new social norms. Just like we haven't adapted to cars, the service-sector economy, or longer life spans.
Something that I’ve never said...
Something that I’ve never said
A story that I’ve never shared
I was only twenty years old
He was a love affair
Soon became a humble home
Wrecked with animosity
Took it to the bottle
Then turned around and took it out on me
And I was just a boy
A scrawny little boy
A naïve, faggot little boy
Too confused by love to leave
Too abused by you to see that you were
A story that I’ve never shared
I was only twenty years old
He was a love affair
Soon became a humble home
Wrecked with animosity
Took it to the bottle
Then turned around and took it out on me
And I was just a boy
A scrawny little boy
A naïve, faggot little boy
Too confused by love to leave
Too abused by you to see that you were
Maniacal, certifiable
It’s comical when I’m looking back I see
You made a man outta me
Life has been so good to me
Taught me things about the soul
If pain is just an error in thought
Then I’m in full control
Glad I started long ago
Learning in the hardest way
Cause now I know my power
And that bullshit would never fly today
And I was just a boy
A sheltered little boy
I let you own that little boy
Might have been too young to see
But look what you made of me cause you were
Maniacal, certifiable
It’s comical when I’m looking back I see
You made a man outta me
And I was just a boy
Misguided little boy
I let you use that little boy
Might have been too young to see
But look what you made of me cause you were
Maniacal, Certifiable
It’s comical when I’m looking back I see
You made a man outta me
"Man outta me" by Levi Kreis
8.29.2006
School
So this is going to be a wierd semester in school. FIrst of all, for the last two years, I have basically been in ONE building for all my classes, now, i am in four buildings throughout the week. One is the completly new IT building on campus which is very nice but wierd to be in. It is also a shlep from food which is super annoying. For work I am in two different building which was fine until last night. I mean OH MY GOD!. Dynasty if you are reading this, you might not like this, but education people are WIERD, Esppecially the people in the masters and doctorette programs. there was a couples classes i had to go help the people just thought they were funny and cool and ummm, well NO! I was so over them by leaving the room i wanted to tell them to shut up.
You have to understand the building that i am was in last night, it is BS/ES which means it is two buildings and of course they are REALLY long. You owuld thinking my office is in the middle, Well no. It is at the end of ES and all the problems were at the other end in BS which is fun when you have to jjust go back and fourth, i mean i quit seriously. Well I am helping this asian women in one of the rooms with her MAC laptop. The reason i tell you she is asian is becuase i am not sure of her country of origin, but English is her second language and therefore i can understand her all the well. But she is nice and i am trying to help. There is a girl in her class that is trying to tell me how to do my job. She is a freaking student and has NO idea what she is talking about. I knwo the equipement and i know what to do, leave me alone. I ended up standing in between the student and tacher bucase she was listening to the student. I was about to say, listen to me or i will leave becuase i have other things to do. But after that, the day did seem to calm down a bit but i was still frustrated.
My last other comment is. OMG i am getting old or these freaking freshmen are getting youngers. I mean they look like they are 12, what is that about? I cant deal with that, it is disgusting!
You have to understand the building that i am was in last night, it is BS/ES which means it is two buildings and of course they are REALLY long. You owuld thinking my office is in the middle, Well no. It is at the end of ES and all the problems were at the other end in BS which is fun when you have to jjust go back and fourth, i mean i quit seriously. Well I am helping this asian women in one of the rooms with her MAC laptop. The reason i tell you she is asian is becuase i am not sure of her country of origin, but English is her second language and therefore i can understand her all the well. But she is nice and i am trying to help. There is a girl in her class that is trying to tell me how to do my job. She is a freaking student and has NO idea what she is talking about. I knwo the equipement and i know what to do, leave me alone. I ended up standing in between the student and tacher bucase she was listening to the student. I was about to say, listen to me or i will leave becuase i have other things to do. But after that, the day did seem to calm down a bit but i was still frustrated.
My last other comment is. OMG i am getting old or these freaking freshmen are getting youngers. I mean they look like they are 12, what is that about? I cant deal with that, it is disgusting!
8.08.2006
I wish I were a girl
Ok, Confused? That is the truth and there are a few reasons for it. But let me get back to that later.
I first want to quickly go over why I hate gay men and why I am thinking of becoming a nun.
1. There are few guys that are not shallow enough to look past money, appearance and sexual position to be friends. Friends people not fuck buddies or sugar daddies or dare I say boyfriends. I will admit that I look at those but not in my friends. I could care less my friend’s sexual preference.
2. Every guy I have met recently has been weird. How many freaking "massage therapist" are out there. Call yourself cheap hookers and be done with it. If I wanted a massage from a stranger, I would go to The Villa. (Btw, if you haven’t been, Grace took me and seriously, isn’t cheap but is SOOOOOO worth it)
3. Ok this is my personal preference and this is mainly speaking to gay men, as this is who I am ranting about but an "open relationship" isn’t a relationship to me for a few reasons. If you partner doesn’t know, it is cheating. If you sleep with others and basically just live together, then that would be your roommate. If you want to put it that way, Grace and I are in an open relationship. I don’t see an open relationship in the terms gay men us it as a real relationship. It is the guy you fuck regularly while fucking other guys intermittently.
4. Learn to love yourself. The whole problem with gay men and gay male society in general is low self esteem. You spend the first 20 years of more of your life hiding and being ashamed of who you are. Then you spend the next twenty trying to feel adequate to what other gay men trying to live up to expectations are telling you. You don’t have to live by that standard. My corny but so completely true saying, "you have to love yourself before you can truly love someone else". Gay men look for satisfaction in other sexual partners as a way to say, I am hot, sexy, funny, smart successful. Those are not the ways to find happiness. I am sick of being judged by those standards. If I don’t sleep with a bunch of guys, I am weird, if I do, I am a slut. I would rather be weird, thank you very much.
5. Last but not least, I don’t hate gay men, I think I pity them. They give me a bad name. Although I don’t not consider myself a gay man, I am a man who is gay. I am defined by them and their actions. All I want is to find someone, settle down, get fat, because I have met someone, have a couple kids, and slowly grow to hate my husband over the years until my children leave for collage and then fall back in love all over again. It just what all couples go through.
Oh yea, as for wanting to be a girl. I don’t want to lop off the boys. NEVER! I just think girls have better clothing options. Boy’s cloths are boring and I am sick of it. That was really it. Think I was going to say something else
7.26.2006
Sometimes, i really do hate people
So, Ok I am chatting online last night. Just chatting seriously and actually wasnt getting offers for sex or anything. I am talking to this guy who is asking me what i want to do when i graduate and had just told me, he graduated twenty years ago and still doesnt know what he wants to do. I tell him that i enjoy politics and would like to work in it in some fashion. his response was. "I am not trying to be rude, but grow up. Run the fuck away. People hate politicians and you need to fucking see that you should do that". I was like, well fuck you too. I responded by saying, I never stated i wanted to be a politician and there are many different things I can and want to do. I said i want to work for a lobying organization that has a define goal. The enviroment, gay rights, abortions for all. Ok so not that last one, i was just seeing if you were paying attention. He just reponded that he was jaded and that i am need to realize that i would need millions of dollars to make any different. I wrote back. and of course i was nicer than this but, Jackass, i am not stupid, i have a political science degree, i know how the system works and what to do. Just because you are a bitter, jaded middle aged man who doesnt know what you want to do doesnt mean you need to be rude to me. We said a few other things but that was about it. that is ridiculous that someone would feel they need to say that to me. Whose business is it what i do? I just hate that someone would think they can be that rude to me. say, wow a tough business or something like that but dont me to fucking run away and grow up. You dont know, and you can not judge what i say one here. Sometimes, i really do hate people. Seriously!
7.08.2006
pictures of flowers
Ok, so they are not flowers yet but they are growing, i am figuring by november we will have buds.
6.29.2006
ho-hum
So, Where are you suppose to meet nice guys? I mean seriously i dont want a "fag" who is just a slutty lushy but i want a real guy. I just dont know anymore. All the guys in this town are morons. I know there are good ones out there that do not go to clubs or bars or anywhere "normal". But then if that is the case, where do you meet them. Randomly at Target or a non starbucks coffee house? I know my prospects are somewhat diminished by living in Nobletucky with the fucking soccer moms and people who are worried about where you park but seriously where? I am looking for help here. I am sick of being single and i am ready for something now. I know this. I dont want cheater but then i want that relationship back. Does that make sense? I have forgiven him for what he did but i will not forget and i need to move on before i can think about him. He is going to be out of the state for at least a year so that is really good for me because it gives me time. In a year who knows but i dont think it will lead me to him. There are people that i like but they are taken or cant seem to take the step of dating yet. Long story, really dont want to talk about that. I want to meet a nice, normal guy who has friends that arent all gay, that doesnt define himself by being gay and has a decent life and by that i mean, a good job, a little money (not tons, dont want a sugar daddy, just want him to support himself) and is happy with his life and most importantly with himself. I just dont want to be single anymore but i dont want to date someone because they are there. I want a real friend and boyfriend. Any suggestions? I dont want to meet him at the club because other than Burt and Erney I dont believe that actually works.
6.28.2006
You may not like this one, just a warning
So, i apoligize that this post is kinda deep and darker than most. I also apoligize if you disagree with me on what I say but i am trying to figure this out and i hope typing it out will help.
So I started my Political Theory class last night, (woohoo). We were talking about emperical (Factual) and Normative (value based) statements. We came to one and then discussed it and i began to think about it and how i feel about the issue. The statement was "Abortion is murder". The problem we were having with the class was that it could be considered emperical or normative depending on how the person views the issue. One person may say it is value based while the other person truly believes the abortion is murder and therefore it is emperical because emperical can be fact based questions even if they are false. I hope that makes sense.
Well, I began to think about what i think about abortion and is it murder or not. Personally, I believe that I have no right to tell Stephanie is Wyoming that she HAS to have the baby she is pregnant with. I would never choose abortion or want someone to choose it but it is not my body or my emotions. I understand people that are adamently against it and i respect that opinion because i do believe that adoption is soo much a better option especially now when you can pick a family that will send pictures, or allow you to know and have visitation with the child. I believe in Safe, Legal and Extremely Rare.
But when do those cells growing in the womb become a baby and when do they become "alive". I find it hard to believe that at the moment of conception there is a concious thought in the two cells that are formed but if not then, then when. I dont believe that it is when the baby comes out of its mother because there is evidence that their is brain function before that. I personally believe the partial birth abortion is murder because waiting until the baby is ready to be born and then deciding that you dont want it, is just wrong. Abortion is meant, i guess, to keep you from going through the pregnancy and if you have gone through it then what is the problem, call an adoption agency. I have heard the argument that when the child is able to live on its own outside its mother then it is "alive" and i guess i would have to agree with that because it seems the most logical although this is not a logic issue. I think that a decision should be made within the first trimester and after that there is no choice except in rare circumstances that the mother is ill, the child will only live in extreme pain for a short time or has already died, but not just because the mother changes her mind.
I believe that abortion should be legal for a few reasons. One, they will continue to happen and i would rather it be in a safe, sterile clinic than in an alley with a coat hanger. The second reason is, if you believe the abortion is murder then why do we all exceptions. Why would you say that the mother's life is any more important that the child. If the mothers life is in danger because of the fetus, why is it that we go with her life. Why is it ok when the woman is raped? I understand the emtional problems that the mother will go through and have a huge amount of respect for women who are raped and raise the resulting child but again we are putting her life about the childs. If abortion is murder then abortion is murder and all abortions should be thrown out.
Well I think that helped me figure out what i feel about this. I know some of you will probably talk to me about it and that is fine because i obvoiusly dont know waht i compoeltly think and talking about it may help.
So I started my Political Theory class last night, (woohoo). We were talking about emperical (Factual) and Normative (value based) statements. We came to one and then discussed it and i began to think about it and how i feel about the issue. The statement was "Abortion is murder". The problem we were having with the class was that it could be considered emperical or normative depending on how the person views the issue. One person may say it is value based while the other person truly believes the abortion is murder and therefore it is emperical because emperical can be fact based questions even if they are false. I hope that makes sense.
Well, I began to think about what i think about abortion and is it murder or not. Personally, I believe that I have no right to tell Stephanie is Wyoming that she HAS to have the baby she is pregnant with. I would never choose abortion or want someone to choose it but it is not my body or my emotions. I understand people that are adamently against it and i respect that opinion because i do believe that adoption is soo much a better option especially now when you can pick a family that will send pictures, or allow you to know and have visitation with the child. I believe in Safe, Legal and Extremely Rare.
But when do those cells growing in the womb become a baby and when do they become "alive". I find it hard to believe that at the moment of conception there is a concious thought in the two cells that are formed but if not then, then when. I dont believe that it is when the baby comes out of its mother because there is evidence that their is brain function before that. I personally believe the partial birth abortion is murder because waiting until the baby is ready to be born and then deciding that you dont want it, is just wrong. Abortion is meant, i guess, to keep you from going through the pregnancy and if you have gone through it then what is the problem, call an adoption agency. I have heard the argument that when the child is able to live on its own outside its mother then it is "alive" and i guess i would have to agree with that because it seems the most logical although this is not a logic issue. I think that a decision should be made within the first trimester and after that there is no choice except in rare circumstances that the mother is ill, the child will only live in extreme pain for a short time or has already died, but not just because the mother changes her mind.
I believe that abortion should be legal for a few reasons. One, they will continue to happen and i would rather it be in a safe, sterile clinic than in an alley with a coat hanger. The second reason is, if you believe the abortion is murder then why do we all exceptions. Why would you say that the mother's life is any more important that the child. If the mothers life is in danger because of the fetus, why is it that we go with her life. Why is it ok when the woman is raped? I understand the emtional problems that the mother will go through and have a huge amount of respect for women who are raped and raise the resulting child but again we are putting her life about the childs. If abortion is murder then abortion is murder and all abortions should be thrown out.
Well I think that helped me figure out what i feel about this. I know some of you will probably talk to me about it and that is fine because i obvoiusly dont know waht i compoeltly think and talking about it may help.
6.27.2006
Long time no blog
So, Ok I know it has been a long time since I blogged but my life has been crazy lately.
I wrecked my car and then had a new one within seven days. I really like my new car. It is smaller than I am used to but i hope it is good on gas mileage and will last a while. It is a 1997 Saturn with only 54000 miles, that is crazy, 6000 miles a year, i put 30000 on my old car in just under three years. I got a good deal although the dealer guys needed to get together and decide how we has to pay because at first they said that mom had to be there and then she did not since she was putting on her credit card so she stayed at work and i went in at 2 to pick it up and the guy was like, when does your mom get here. I said she wasnt and he said she had to be. I told him he had to call and tell her and deal with her when she got here because i wasnt going to do it. He then agreed to fax it to her which was probably better for all involved because she would have been pissed. Well i finally got to drive the car away, and they clapped for me. That was amusing. I like my little saturn.
So I have been told I need to post an update on the plants that i blogged able earlier. I will post pictures later tonight so check back. They are doing pretty well, the grass finally came in, super thick although Leo needs to keep oscar off it since he is still killing the grass. I am going to reseed tommorrow so i will then have to keep him off of it.
I am sooo over dealing with cell phone companies. Verizon sent my mom a bill for an account that we never had although the girl i talked to was super nice and took care of it. I went to sprint to buy a new phone and you know how you walk into some stores and the associate is just a little wierd. well i went into the sprint store at Clay Terrace and that is what happened well they did not have the phone I wanted so we needed to go to another store, he told us the intersection where it was, we saw it. it said sprint, and had that stupid yellow symbol they have now. We went in and there was one older woman working and she was helping someone else. it took her twenty minutes and was still helping him. IN that time we figured out we were at the wrong store so we went in search of the third store. literally it was across the street. At this point, i was over it and wanted my phone. that is when Joanie came into my life. I told her what i wanted she asked about accessories, i said no. She asked for the account information and ten minutes later, I had my new phone. I love her, that is the best customer service I have had at any cell store this year. she did exactly what i wanted and nothing more. she even did it right. I LOVE HER and i told her that. LOL
I think that is it for now, i will post some pictures later if anyone cares
I wrecked my car and then had a new one within seven days. I really like my new car. It is smaller than I am used to but i hope it is good on gas mileage and will last a while. It is a 1997 Saturn with only 54000 miles, that is crazy, 6000 miles a year, i put 30000 on my old car in just under three years. I got a good deal although the dealer guys needed to get together and decide how we has to pay because at first they said that mom had to be there and then she did not since she was putting on her credit card so she stayed at work and i went in at 2 to pick it up and the guy was like, when does your mom get here. I said she wasnt and he said she had to be. I told him he had to call and tell her and deal with her when she got here because i wasnt going to do it. He then agreed to fax it to her which was probably better for all involved because she would have been pissed. Well i finally got to drive the car away, and they clapped for me. That was amusing. I like my little saturn.
So I have been told I need to post an update on the plants that i blogged able earlier. I will post pictures later tonight so check back. They are doing pretty well, the grass finally came in, super thick although Leo needs to keep oscar off it since he is still killing the grass. I am going to reseed tommorrow so i will then have to keep him off of it.
I am sooo over dealing with cell phone companies. Verizon sent my mom a bill for an account that we never had although the girl i talked to was super nice and took care of it. I went to sprint to buy a new phone and you know how you walk into some stores and the associate is just a little wierd. well i went into the sprint store at Clay Terrace and that is what happened well they did not have the phone I wanted so we needed to go to another store, he told us the intersection where it was, we saw it. it said sprint, and had that stupid yellow symbol they have now. We went in and there was one older woman working and she was helping someone else. it took her twenty minutes and was still helping him. IN that time we figured out we were at the wrong store so we went in search of the third store. literally it was across the street. At this point, i was over it and wanted my phone. that is when Joanie came into my life. I told her what i wanted she asked about accessories, i said no. She asked for the account information and ten minutes later, I had my new phone. I love her, that is the best customer service I have had at any cell store this year. she did exactly what i wanted and nothing more. she even did it right. I LOVE HER and i told her that. LOL
I think that is it for now, i will post some pictures later if anyone cares
6.12.2006
I am so ashamed, i went to Wal-Mart, TWICE!
Ok, So this is going to be a rambling blog about things that arent long enough to be a whole blog or would be really boring as a whole blog so they get all clumped together.
So, Grace is such a HAG, i dont mean that she is ugly but she found the only gay couple in Noblesville and became friends with them. (I know, I know he said hi to you but then you walked over and started having an hour long conversation with them.) Well they are going to be called Joe and Larry because of, of course Will and Grace. Well Grace somehow gets herself invited into their house to snoop. She falls in love with this fan, from Wal-Mart of all places. We will come back to that in a minute. Well we have a nice conversation with them and they are super nice. Larry had a daughter and is amusing about it because she developing umm boobs and he is not at all happy. We are going to keep in contact with them adn have decided we want to move to that block becasue they are very nice although i really only think it is Mary Kay that is a bitch on our block, everyone else seems super nice. Oh yea Grace went talked to Mary Kay last night about the whole police thing. We decided just to act like we did not know who called and say if you have any problems, just come over. She of course did not fess up to being the one who called. Oh well it is over and we won. She can just get over it.
So back to the fan, while Grace was snooping she saw a ceiling fan that she loved but it was of course at Wal-mart where we do not shop because of their employee treatment. Well At first i was saying no, dont buy it but really she was not finding fans that she liked anywhere else and if you can only find it there then i think it is ok but if i can buy it at target, meijer or anywhere else, i will even if i have to pay more. Well we went there last night and ended up buying 3 fans for the house. She only spent $116 on three fans, which is not bad. We could have bought similar fans at meijer for 80-90 each. I am torn because ifeel like we should buy them there but they are not exactly the same thing and we already own them. I am oging to go home tonight and see if i can put them up so we have air flow in the house.
So, I am very happy because i have a lunch buddy at work. Maria, (not a real name,although her real name sounds more like a nickname) is from sallie mae and not works at the hospital. She and i have lunch like once a week which is nice. its nice ot have somoene to talk to because i basically sit in my offce and do nothing. We usually go over to the hotel but it is fun.
Well I know there are other things i forgetting aobut. I woudl tell you about going to Homearoma yesterday butit would probably be pretty boring so i wont do that to ya.
So, Grace is such a HAG, i dont mean that she is ugly but she found the only gay couple in Noblesville and became friends with them. (I know, I know he said hi to you but then you walked over and started having an hour long conversation with them.) Well they are going to be called Joe and Larry because of, of course Will and Grace. Well Grace somehow gets herself invited into their house to snoop. She falls in love with this fan, from Wal-Mart of all places. We will come back to that in a minute. Well we have a nice conversation with them and they are super nice. Larry had a daughter and is amusing about it because she developing umm boobs and he is not at all happy. We are going to keep in contact with them adn have decided we want to move to that block becasue they are very nice although i really only think it is Mary Kay that is a bitch on our block, everyone else seems super nice. Oh yea Grace went talked to Mary Kay last night about the whole police thing. We decided just to act like we did not know who called and say if you have any problems, just come over. She of course did not fess up to being the one who called. Oh well it is over and we won. She can just get over it.
So back to the fan, while Grace was snooping she saw a ceiling fan that she loved but it was of course at Wal-mart where we do not shop because of their employee treatment. Well At first i was saying no, dont buy it but really she was not finding fans that she liked anywhere else and if you can only find it there then i think it is ok but if i can buy it at target, meijer or anywhere else, i will even if i have to pay more. Well we went there last night and ended up buying 3 fans for the house. She only spent $116 on three fans, which is not bad. We could have bought similar fans at meijer for 80-90 each. I am torn because ifeel like we should buy them there but they are not exactly the same thing and we already own them. I am oging to go home tonight and see if i can put them up so we have air flow in the house.
So, I am very happy because i have a lunch buddy at work. Maria, (not a real name,although her real name sounds more like a nickname) is from sallie mae and not works at the hospital. She and i have lunch like once a week which is nice. its nice ot have somoene to talk to because i basically sit in my offce and do nothing. We usually go over to the hotel but it is fun.
Well I know there are other things i forgetting aobut. I woudl tell you about going to Homearoma yesterday butit would probably be pretty boring so i wont do that to ya.
6.09.2006
6.08.2006
Plantin Season (Yes, I know there is suppose to be a G but i am trying to be country)
Ok, so the front of our house is very boring. Its a cookie cutter house with bad landscaping. It is what came with the house. Grace wanted Gerber Daisies but at this juncture, they are are too expensive to get the right look and we waited to long to put bulbs in the ground. Well i decided, and grace concurred when i told her she did, to get one of those shakers with a bunch of different seeds in it. it was 5.46 at Home Depot. I honestly thought we would have one maybe two flowers out of the whole bunch. I did not have high hopes, especially since every plant in this house that I brought with me have died. (Its
graces fault and therefore is not allowed, unsupervised to even look at my flowers, i am serious, if i find out she looked at them or even thought about it, there will be hell to pay. I dont care that the house is in her name, the flowers are in mine and they will survive). Anyhoo i put the shaker out and thought it would be a couple of weeks before anything would really start. Well they have already. its thursday and things are starting to grow, just look at the pictures. The first one is of the entire bed. The fire bushes were there origianally but i figured it would look wierd with nothing so i left them so if nothing grew we wouldnt be the laughing stock of the
neighborhood and our neighbors wouldnt hate us, well more than mary kay does, btw there is a picture of the situation now, so take a look. The second and third picture show the little plants coming up. I am rather impressed with it, especially if that many really come up. We will see. The thirs picture might be harder to see but you can kinda see all the little plants. So i will tell you about my other growing project. So Oscar, the dog, had toxic urine. he killed a large plot of our sod. Well i decided to dig it up and plant grass seed so that he will have all grass out there and it wont look wierd. Well it is not going quite as well. I am hoping they are still working on it
because if they dont grow i will be mad, although it will be graces fault for looking at it or something. Well i have also included a picture of what we are calling the mud hole.
6.07.2006
Neighbors
Ok, Well I figured i would blog about this STUPID incident that happened. Ok everyone knows i now live in the burbs. I mean the BURBS. Me, Oscar, the Cats and soccer moms. I usually dont have a problem with the soccer moms but the more i am out there, the more i dislike them, although definatly not all. Well our neighborhood is quite interesting. There really is a mix of people in the neighborhood. We have a young couple with two yound, adorable children next door, a retired couple on the other side and dating couples across the street. Well the family that lives directly across the street is something else. We are going to call the woman over there Mary Kay, because well she sells Mary Kay. Well it has been a joke for the last month or so that she did not like me because of where i parked, which is in front of her house. I really meant it as a joke and i think Grace did as well. Well I park across the street from our house because if i park in front of the house, we wont get our mail. Since her box is with ours, you would think she would be happy about that. I am sitting watching TV Monday and i see this big black truck pull up and park in front of our house with flashers on. He goes up to the house next door to Mary Kay, I was calling the woman Hag but i dont like that now, so we will call her, Betty. Well he talks to betty for a few minutes and then she leads him to mary Kay's side door. They talk for a while. In this time Grace comes home and is obviously trying to figure out what is going on. She ends up talking to the neighbors on either side of us. Well when the police man comes over he tells me i have to turn my car around because it is parked in an incorrect fashion. I told him that it was fine. he explained that i could park on the street 24/7 becuase it was a public street. So We explain to him that we can not park in front of our house because then we wont get
our mail and i can not park in the back because Grace and Leo park back there. Take a look at the picture. Does that seem like a big deal to anyone, ANYONE!?! He said that is fine and basicall ythere is nothing she can do. Well Ic ome home the next dag and hag is standing outside her house. She comes up and asks to talk to me. She says that she did not call the police and gestures that Mary Kay did. She said she would have just come over and asked me to move if it really was a problem. I tod her, that if it ever was a problem to let us know. So basically Mary Kay was trying to get my car towed. I also find it very interesting that the next morning my tired magically had a screw in it. A little to conincidental dont you think? I can not prove and would not accuse her but just odd. I am still parking in front of her house beucase there is nothing that the bitch can do about it. I think Grace and I are going to go talk to her on sunday to see what the problem was. To me, it just really is not that big of deal. Who cares that a car is in front of your house. people are being killed every day in Iraq, our schools systems are crublinging because of lack of funding, healthcare costs are skyrocketing and THIS is what we and the cops are spending our time on. If you feel that it is a big deal please let me know because i just do not get it.
our mail and i can not park in the back because Grace and Leo park back there. Take a look at the picture. Does that seem like a big deal to anyone, ANYONE!?! He said that is fine and basicall ythere is nothing she can do. Well Ic ome home the next dag and hag is standing outside her house. She comes up and asks to talk to me. She says that she did not call the police and gestures that Mary Kay did. She said she would have just come over and asked me to move if it really was a problem. I tod her, that if it ever was a problem to let us know. So basically Mary Kay was trying to get my car towed. I also find it very interesting that the next morning my tired magically had a screw in it. A little to conincidental dont you think? I can not prove and would not accuse her but just odd. I am still parking in front of her house beucase there is nothing that the bitch can do about it. I think Grace and I are going to go talk to her on sunday to see what the problem was. To me, it just really is not that big of deal. Who cares that a car is in front of your house. people are being killed every day in Iraq, our schools systems are crublinging because of lack of funding, healthcare costs are skyrocketing and THIS is what we and the cops are spending our time on. If you feel that it is a big deal please let me know because i just do not get it.
5.24.2006
Child Sex Predators
I am going to apoligize because this is going to be a downer and normally i do not like to be completly depressing but this is going to be because i am about t obe sick.
Ok, So I am sitting here in the house trying to clean the house but I am engrossed in Dateline NBC's To Catch a Predator. This is absolutly the most apalling thing that I have ever seen. I am watching at this moment a man who brought his little son to meet a girl for sex. I just can not believe that someone would bring his son. There is another guy who is looking to meet a 14 yo girl and have her perform a sex act on a cat. I am glad they did not describe it anymore because i dont want to know. These guys are not usually ones that do this one time. There is one guy that Feminazi and I had discussed because he was young, attractive, a teacher and we were trying to figure out why he was going that well it turns out that while this was in Ohio, he was talking to a decoy cop in Carmel, and I mean Carmel Indiana. He is facing 8 felony counts here. I mean I feel bad for some of these people because their lives are ruined but at the same time, they should be caught because it is better to ruin their lives than allow them to ruin a childs life. It is very scarey
Ok , in a side note, Oscar the dog is currently running in a circle after his tail. He caught it and then started barking at it. He kept running in a circle while doing this and then fell to the ground with a daze in his eyes because i think he is dizzy. Ok that was just a funny sidenote.
I would be very worried to have children right now, but i would be very protective of my child. I would also teach my children about these things. I just dont know because this is sooooo disgusting. I am about to be sick. I am glad to see that these people are going to jail but it might not be enough because they just get back out and then can do it again. The internet just makes it to easy. Well I am over thinking about it.
Ok, So I am sitting here in the house trying to clean the house but I am engrossed in Dateline NBC's To Catch a Predator. This is absolutly the most apalling thing that I have ever seen. I am watching at this moment a man who brought his little son to meet a girl for sex. I just can not believe that someone would bring his son. There is another guy who is looking to meet a 14 yo girl and have her perform a sex act on a cat. I am glad they did not describe it anymore because i dont want to know. These guys are not usually ones that do this one time. There is one guy that Feminazi and I had discussed because he was young, attractive, a teacher and we were trying to figure out why he was going that well it turns out that while this was in Ohio, he was talking to a decoy cop in Carmel, and I mean Carmel Indiana. He is facing 8 felony counts here. I mean I feel bad for some of these people because their lives are ruined but at the same time, they should be caught because it is better to ruin their lives than allow them to ruin a childs life. It is very scarey
Ok , in a side note, Oscar the dog is currently running in a circle after his tail. He caught it and then started barking at it. He kept running in a circle while doing this and then fell to the ground with a daze in his eyes because i think he is dizzy. Ok that was just a funny sidenote.
I would be very worried to have children right now, but i would be very protective of my child. I would also teach my children about these things. I just dont know because this is sooooo disgusting. I am about to be sick. I am glad to see that these people are going to jail but it might not be enough because they just get back out and then can do it again. The internet just makes it to easy. Well I am over thinking about it.
5.22.2006
Pink
Ok, So everyone knows that i am somewhat political. just a little. Well I was listening to some of the new songs from Pink's new album and one of them is call Dear Mr President. It is a really good song. I usually dont love the songs written to the president about his actions because you can not get everything out in 2 or 3 minutes but this is good. I loaded it on my MySpace profile so go take a listen.
Also, there is another song on there, I guess this is going to be a blog about Pink and her new album. There is a song called, Conversations with my 13 year old self. That got me thinking. What would I say to my 13 year old self. I know there is a lot I wish I knew at that age. I would tell myself to calm down, lifes not that big of a deal. It all works out in the end and that rough times are coming but you will survive. I dont know if i would tell myself about mistakes I made because i feel those mistakes made me the person that I am. I would tell myself to accept being gay and move on. The world will not end. Other than that, I would still want things to happen to me as they did because if they did not, i would not be where i am today, with the life and friends i have today.
Ok, My last thing about the album. I think this album is very empowering to women and especially young girls who may look at all the performers out there and get the wrong idea about them. Say what you will about Britney and Christina but I believe that it is mostly an image they try to put out. They could not get that far without being intelligent. Men use themeselves to sell things but that is ok. Some of these girls though do not seem to understand what they are showing to the public. I have a problem with the cameras following people all the time but at the same time, you can not turn off them cameras until you want them. the public wants to know about your life. Girls like Paris Hilton, Lindsey Lohen and etc are bad influence because they are not being smart about their image. I dont know I am torn. I believe what Pink says, there is being sexy and that is fine but you can also be smart at the same time. many of my female friends and sexy and smart. They are not oil and water.
Well, I feel like everyone should get this album and listen to it because it is pretty good.
Also, there is another song on there, I guess this is going to be a blog about Pink and her new album. There is a song called, Conversations with my 13 year old self. That got me thinking. What would I say to my 13 year old self. I know there is a lot I wish I knew at that age. I would tell myself to calm down, lifes not that big of a deal. It all works out in the end and that rough times are coming but you will survive. I dont know if i would tell myself about mistakes I made because i feel those mistakes made me the person that I am. I would tell myself to accept being gay and move on. The world will not end. Other than that, I would still want things to happen to me as they did because if they did not, i would not be where i am today, with the life and friends i have today.
Ok, My last thing about the album. I think this album is very empowering to women and especially young girls who may look at all the performers out there and get the wrong idea about them. Say what you will about Britney and Christina but I believe that it is mostly an image they try to put out. They could not get that far without being intelligent. Men use themeselves to sell things but that is ok. Some of these girls though do not seem to understand what they are showing to the public. I have a problem with the cameras following people all the time but at the same time, you can not turn off them cameras until you want them. the public wants to know about your life. Girls like Paris Hilton, Lindsey Lohen and etc are bad influence because they are not being smart about their image. I dont know I am torn. I believe what Pink says, there is being sexy and that is fine but you can also be smart at the same time. many of my female friends and sexy and smart. They are not oil and water.
Well, I feel like everyone should get this album and listen to it because it is pretty good.
5.17.2006
I went poop in my bed, so i put it on the tv
Ok, SO i feel the title needs explanation. It is from Scrubs. I dont normally watch the show but Grace and Leo had it on while we were looking at cars and that was the funniest line i have heard in a while. It was said by a little kid to his parents who just found out they were pregnant.
Ok so anyway. SpeedyGonursy and I went down to Elizabethtown, IN to go to Ceasar's casino. I had never been to casino when i could actually gamble. I wanted to gamble a bit and see what it is like. It was fun but when we were standing in line for a member card to get benefits, there were these women behind us that i wanted to just tell to shut up. They were white trash mid 40yo women with horrbie dye jobs. THere was just one old guy filling out the forms but more people were supposed to be more people coming. Well these women were standing behind us and just saying things like, I cant believe there is only one person. they are loosing money from this and just bitching. it was sooo pointless because yes it was annying that there was one person but it was not his fault or the other employees were right there. when somoene did come up to start logging in, they yelled and clapped and then were upset because it took time to log in but i mean come on, i am sure he can not just do it in one second. OK soafter that were went down to play. We found the penny slots, i know big money. I lost some money adn then SpeedyGonursy gave me 10 because i think she was annoyed thaqt i was watching her haha. I stretched that ten bucks out for like 3 hours. I was at one point up like 60 bucks but of course i kept playing and lost it all. Oh well, it was fun and i get my money back so its all good.
I am sad, The amazing race is ending tonight for the season. I am hoping that the Hippies or Ray and Yolanda win. I think it will be the hippies but i could see it being the frat boys.
Ok so anyway. SpeedyGonursy and I went down to Elizabethtown, IN to go to Ceasar's casino. I had never been to casino when i could actually gamble. I wanted to gamble a bit and see what it is like. It was fun but when we were standing in line for a member card to get benefits, there were these women behind us that i wanted to just tell to shut up. They were white trash mid 40yo women with horrbie dye jobs. THere was just one old guy filling out the forms but more people were supposed to be more people coming. Well these women were standing behind us and just saying things like, I cant believe there is only one person. they are loosing money from this and just bitching. it was sooo pointless because yes it was annying that there was one person but it was not his fault or the other employees were right there. when somoene did come up to start logging in, they yelled and clapped and then were upset because it took time to log in but i mean come on, i am sure he can not just do it in one second. OK soafter that were went down to play. We found the penny slots, i know big money. I lost some money adn then SpeedyGonursy gave me 10 because i think she was annoyed thaqt i was watching her haha. I stretched that ten bucks out for like 3 hours. I was at one point up like 60 bucks but of course i kept playing and lost it all. Oh well, it was fun and i get my money back so its all good.
I am sad, The amazing race is ending tonight for the season. I am hoping that the Hippies or Ray and Yolanda win. I think it will be the hippies but i could see it being the frat boys.
5.12.2006
TiVo TiVo Tivo
I bought this new TiVo and can I just say this, I LOVE TIVO! It is my happy machine. I used to have TiVo but the modem got burnt out and I was poor at the time so I did not get a replacement. I have been wanting to get one but I was waiting until they caught up with cable and you could record two shows at once and watch one while recording ano
ther. They finally came out with it woo hoo. This is a picture of mine, isnt it pretty. I am thinking of using it as my Christmas card. Is that wierd? Oh well if you have one, you will understand. Well now I can watch stuff and plus i can listen to my music on it, look at weather and traffic, which is actually nice to have. I kinda though, oh I will never use that but i have looked at it every morning since i now have a commute at rush hour. Oh on that note, i am soooo happy that i found a 30 minute way to work. At sat at 116th st the other morning for 25 minutes going two miles an hour. not fun. Ok So now that i have TiVo, my like should be good now right? No. I moved my bedroom around and the Tv is broken. I blame LesboDyke for the bad energy she has put into my life.
Ok so anyone, i love TiVo, you all know it and you should all get one, but put me down as a reference because i need TiVo points because i need merchandise from TiVo.
ther. They finally came out with it woo hoo. This is a picture of mine, isnt it pretty. I am thinking of using it as my Christmas card. Is that wierd? Oh well if you have one, you will understand. Well now I can watch stuff and plus i can listen to my music on it, look at weather and traffic, which is actually nice to have. I kinda though, oh I will never use that but i have looked at it every morning since i now have a commute at rush hour. Oh on that note, i am soooo happy that i found a 30 minute way to work. At sat at 116th st the other morning for 25 minutes going two miles an hour. not fun. Ok So now that i have TiVo, my like should be good now right? No. I moved my bedroom around and the Tv is broken. I blame LesboDyke for the bad energy she has put into my life. Ok so anyone, i love TiVo, you all know it and you should all get one, but put me down as a reference because i need TiVo points because i need merchandise from TiVo.
5.10.2006
Shut up Grace
Ok, So i am writing a post. I was going to start off bitching at Grace because I post way more often than she does but then i decided I should actually look at her blog before I say anything that I would regret. Of course she has posted!
Well I am pretty boring. Have been trying to get organized in the house. I moved my room around yesterday to make it more functional for me. Ok well not so much for me but for Oscar. I felt that he did not feel comfortable in the room so I moved it around to get him more room. I felt really bad last night, it was about 11 and he was sound asleep, kinda snoring on my floor. I was going to go to bed and debated whether to wake him up or let him sleep. I decided to move him because i did not think they entire zoo should be within two rooms. I also did not want him to wake up and decide to eat cat food. I figured that the liquid poo later in the day was not worth letting him sleep. I felt really bad though. although he probably just went in the bedroom and fell asleep.
Feminazi has really been having the interesting week. Well I am sure that everyone knows about LesboDyke. Well if you are not, i will give you the short story. Feminazi and I took a gender class this semseter adn the LesboDyke was in the class and is the stereotype of the of Dyke, not a lesbian, a dyke. Just want to make that perfectly clear. She is very religious and is against homosexuality, not homosexuals but homosexuality, cause those are easy to seperate. She and I have had many discussions, yea that is what we will call them. She and I obviously disagree about what the bible and god says. I talked to god this morning and she told me that LesboDyke was completly wrong. Well I think that she is trying to hide that she likes women by "keepin it real wit Jesus", yes that is what she actually says and signs her emails with. and I did mean Wit not with. Well she does not seem to like the idea of logic. she does not follow it and will ignore flaws in her argument when logic points out how wrong she is. Well, Feminazi gets an email the other day from her talking about her relgious views and stating that she wants to be friends with her. I mean what the hell? Well it goes on and Feminazi ends the email stream by stating that she does not want to be friends with her because of her views on things such as homosexuality and that she could not be friends with her because of them. I have respect for that because I had friends that could not get past it and quit being friends with me because of that, oh i will talk about one of them in a second. So now, LesboDyke keeps sending her email after email after email trying to be friends and get her to go to their church where she states are former Mos, theives and CHILD MOLESTORS. She willingly attends and takes her child to a place with child molestors. HELLO!!!!!!
Ok so former best friend. in high school was Mr academic, FLUNKED out of college not once but TWICE. I really am thinking of making a nice copy of my diploma and writing on HA, LOOK WHAT I HAVE, SUCK IT BITCH!
Well I am pretty boring. Have been trying to get organized in the house. I moved my room around yesterday to make it more functional for me. Ok well not so much for me but for Oscar. I felt that he did not feel comfortable in the room so I moved it around to get him more room. I felt really bad last night, it was about 11 and he was sound asleep, kinda snoring on my floor. I was going to go to bed and debated whether to wake him up or let him sleep. I decided to move him because i did not think they entire zoo should be within two rooms. I also did not want him to wake up and decide to eat cat food. I figured that the liquid poo later in the day was not worth letting him sleep. I felt really bad though. although he probably just went in the bedroom and fell asleep.
Feminazi has really been having the interesting week. Well I am sure that everyone knows about LesboDyke. Well if you are not, i will give you the short story. Feminazi and I took a gender class this semseter adn the LesboDyke was in the class and is the stereotype of the of Dyke, not a lesbian, a dyke. Just want to make that perfectly clear. She is very religious and is against homosexuality, not homosexuals but homosexuality, cause those are easy to seperate. She and I have had many discussions, yea that is what we will call them. She and I obviously disagree about what the bible and god says. I talked to god this morning and she told me that LesboDyke was completly wrong. Well I think that she is trying to hide that she likes women by "keepin it real wit Jesus", yes that is what she actually says and signs her emails with. and I did mean Wit not with. Well she does not seem to like the idea of logic. she does not follow it and will ignore flaws in her argument when logic points out how wrong she is. Well, Feminazi gets an email the other day from her talking about her relgious views and stating that she wants to be friends with her. I mean what the hell? Well it goes on and Feminazi ends the email stream by stating that she does not want to be friends with her because of her views on things such as homosexuality and that she could not be friends with her because of them. I have respect for that because I had friends that could not get past it and quit being friends with me because of that, oh i will talk about one of them in a second. So now, LesboDyke keeps sending her email after email after email trying to be friends and get her to go to their church where she states are former Mos, theives and CHILD MOLESTORS. She willingly attends and takes her child to a place with child molestors. HELLO!!!!!!
Ok so former best friend. in high school was Mr academic, FLUNKED out of college not once but TWICE. I really am thinking of making a nice copy of my diploma and writing on HA, LOOK WHAT I HAVE, SUCK IT BITCH!
5.02.2006
4.22.2006
Long time
Wow, So it has been a long time since i posted. School has been crazy and then moving as well. My own fault, I should have moved when my lease was up but i was opposed to the idea for some reason. I need to learn to be less stubborn. I get an idea in my head and wont let it go. I think it will be odd living up in Noblesville with Grace and ummm, her husband (i forget if i have a nickname for him or not, and i refuse to call him Leo). I dont think it will be bad but i have to get used to living with other people and so will they. I have lived alone for three years but I will have to live with someone someday, so I might as well do it. I will also have to get used to the commute. I want to get a part time job on top of my glorified av boy job so I can buy a new car. I want a Honda or Toyota. They are more expensive but better on gas millage. The Prius, gets 60 MPG in the CITY! the city people. that is insane. The honda insight also get 60. plus it get better milage on the highway, although it is only a two seater which wouldnt thrill me. Well I dont know where i want to work. I dread going back to retail but i dont know where i can get a job that will work around my schedule. I also dont want to work for shit money. I am over that shit but i dont want to be a manager because i just dont care that much. I want to go, do my job to the best of my ability and then go home. I dont want to have to think about. I dont know.
Everyone that reads this needs to spread the rumor that ALL GAY MEN CANT SWIM. My friend feminazi and I are trying ot start a stereotype for gay men and see if we can see it on tv. Wel figure it wont take long, get a few people who beleive and in a year or two we should see it on tv. I am sure that the religious right will say thats why we shouldnt be able to marry. if god wants us to marry then he would have allowed us to swim.
Alright, when i started this blog, i felt like i had a lot to say but now i cant remember it so i am signing off.
Everyone that reads this needs to spread the rumor that ALL GAY MEN CANT SWIM. My friend feminazi and I are trying ot start a stereotype for gay men and see if we can see it on tv. Wel figure it wont take long, get a few people who beleive and in a year or two we should see it on tv. I am sure that the religious right will say thats why we shouldnt be able to marry. if god wants us to marry then he would have allowed us to swim.
Alright, when i started this blog, i felt like i had a lot to say but now i cant remember it so i am signing off.
4.12.2006
Second Blog in as many minutes
So, I was thinking today. Everyday when i come into work I have to go to another building to get keys to the office. I always see this guy and think to myself "I hate gay people". I say that a lot and I feel now though I should explain what I mean so people understand. I am not a gay man. I am a man who happens to be gay. I do not define myself by my homosexuality. It is part, not all of who i am. Although, I do not see myself that way, the world sees me by the definitions and stereotypes that the gay community puts forward. The stereotype of a gay man is a "girly", feminine, flaming, out there, bar fly who does not have goals and only cares about sex, drugs and sex. I do not feel as though that definition fits me but i am judged because of what others put out there. I have goals. I have a life other than the fact that i am gay. I know that I will have to work harder because of that stereotype and it will not change in the near future. I hope that by being myself and achieving my goals, I am able to show people that there are differences. I will not relent from defending myself if I am attacked for being gay. I will stand up for myself. being gay is part of who i am. When i see a gay man who is defining himself by his homosexuality or fitting every stereotype, i get annoyed. I can think of many instances where someone may be very nice but they completly define themselves in that way. Feminazi (Formally Squidgy) and I and one of her friends, Beth (I cant think of a good nickname for her), were at the local coffee shop. One of Beth's friends came in and sat down with us. I met him when he worked for three days at the baggage. He defines himself by his homosexuality. He may be a very nice guy but everything he does is based on the stereotypes that are put forward. When Feminazi and I were leaving, I stated that i can not stand him and that is why. She seemed offended by it but I knwo that if it were a woman sitting there taking similar actions about female stereotypes, she would have been annoyed. In my dealing with him which is limited I will admit, he may have been a nice guy but I can not and will not accept that he is the stereotype. I do not believe that people choose this. I think homosexuals, men in particular, who seem to fit the stereotype on the outside do not truly enjoy their life. While they are acting in a stereotypical way, they are covering for a life of regret and low self esteem. The whole problem with the gay community is that we all suffer from low self-esteem. How can you not when you spend years of your life hiding who you are because you are told it is wrong, immoral and a sin. I had and still have at times an immense low self esteem problem. Some people cover it up with drugs, others with countless meaningless sexual encounters or like i did, with food. I think why i am fat is because i am gay. food is comforting. Sex can be comforting to some people because they feel validated by it. They feel that someone wants them and it makes them feel better but i always want to ask, when they leave do you still feel better? the person always leaves and they are along again. gay men hate being alone and rarely are. I think it is hard to learn to love yourself, but you can never truly love somoene if you dont know how to be alone and love yourself. I do not enjoy the one night stand because you are always alone in the morning so what does it serve.
People tell me thatsex is needed and i used to argue with that but now i just give up. I do not believe that sex is a need, it is a want. I want sex, I do not need it. I can live my life without it, until I have something more than a one night stand, although it is more fun to have it.
Gay men annoy me. I want to surround myself with men who happen to be gay. I dont hate the people that may be the wrong word, i dont like what they represent. They represent everything i stand against. Some may show who they are but others may just be showing who they want the word to see. We need to give up the facades we put out for others. Well, I think that is it. please post comments, I want to hear them.
People tell me thatsex is needed and i used to argue with that but now i just give up. I do not believe that sex is a need, it is a want. I want sex, I do not need it. I can live my life without it, until I have something more than a one night stand, although it is more fun to have it.
Gay men annoy me. I want to surround myself with men who happen to be gay. I dont hate the people that may be the wrong word, i dont like what they represent. They represent everything i stand against. Some may show who they are but others may just be showing who they want the word to see. We need to give up the facades we put out for others. Well, I think that is it. please post comments, I want to hear them.
4.09.2006
Washington DC
Well, Dynasty, Painterboy and I got back from DC this morning. It wa
s fun but was also nice to sleep in my own bed. I am still surprised how comfortable the sofabed was compared to other sofabeds. We walked all over the place, my foot is still killing me. I dont know what I did to my toe but it looked pretty bad at a time. I think just rubbing it was probably what did it. I dont know how Painterboy walked around in cheap Abercrombie Flip Flops all day (MOre about those later) We got to DC about 930 Thursday morning. As we were driving in, Marine One Flew over and that was awesome. PB (Short for PainterBoy) got a picture of it and it was good compared we were in the car and it was moving. I wish we could have gotten closer but the
experience was cool. We checked into the hotel and were impressed for the money how nice it was. DY and PB took a nap and I just couldnt. We decided to walk places or take the subway. We were about 7 block from George and the White house so we walked down. it was a beautiful day to be walking and walking and walking and walking. I think you get the idea. We saw the WH and that was Awesome, i will live there someday. We found the subway and took it to Arlington so we could see JFK and Jackie and the changing of the guard at the Tomb of the Unknown Soilder. We must have taken the long way up because it took a good half hour, forty five minutes to get up and then when we were done, it took maybe five minutes. Ok I may be exagerating a little but still it was nuts. We then went to the Capitol. We walked around it and Dy was all ready to keep going but PB and I revolted and demanded food. I was really crappy because i was tired. I dont think DY got it but oh well. I just wanted to go back and take a nap. They ate at Fudruckers, which we ate at the next day adn was pretty good. We went home and slept for a bit and then went to Dupont Circle to see what was up. We went back to the hotel and ordered a pizza and went to bed.
The next day we got up, at like 11 and went to the art museum which was freaking huge. PB i think was super excited. We went to the Smithsonian and the mall. I expected the mall to be nicer but i guess everyone walking on it and stuff made it pretty run down. There were some hot guys there playing sports. We saw the giant penis, oops i mean the washington monument. That was cool. We started walking down to see Lincoln but i had hurt my toe the day before and just wanted to rest. I sat down watched the boys play rugby. I think DY
was jealous i got to do that LOL. I really think he thinks thats why i stopped, although it wasnt, just a plus. We went back to the hotel for a bit and then were going to eat at Dupont circle. We ate at California Pizza Kitchen. Ok the deal with tthat. We saw it the night before but they were closed. Painterboy and Dy were all excited about it and I thought they were nuts like normal because it was a pizza place, not named pizza express so how good could it be. Ok so you know i love the express but for different reasons, it is my comfort pizza. California Pizza Kitchen is Awesome. I hate veggies on pizza and it was so good. I hate chicken on pizza cause it seems wrong cause i love
chicken, but chicken and pizza just seems wrong somehow. Well this was sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo good. I just wanna say, if you have the option to eat there it is quite good. I want a second, more conveniant one in indy, the one here is a lot of work to go to. As for the picture, i think painterboy was just excited LOL
We got up the next morning and i misse dbreakfast buy like minutes, minutes people, do you know how annoying that is. This guy on the elavator was nice though and let me have some of his. Ok that sounds bad but it really wasnt. It was amuffin and it was wrapped. He was a nice guy and cute as all get out.
Once they finally got up, and i do mean finally, we went to the Potomac Mills Mall. Ok the thing is HUGE, HUGE PEOPLE it was sort of an outlet. some outlet stores and others not so much. it had an IKEA which is always fun. I bought pretty boring stuff. SO on Friday night, i walked around and it was raining and i was wearing flipflops to help no put pressure on my toe, so i kept slipping, like the bottom had not traction. I ended up walking back from the subway barefoot because it was easier. Although was not completly fun. This parking lot had likes of broken class put into the design, it seemed stupid to me and it kinda hurt but better than falling on my ass. Well overall that trip was fun. Some of us had a small stupid tiff on the car ride home. no need to get into it. We made it back alright. I drove like 4 hours on the way home while the other two slept. Dy i dont htink even woke up in that time. PB kept waking up and asking if i was alright. it was kinda funny. Well I think that is everything. Some pictures are on here but they are just ones i feel are cool or relavent
s fun but was also nice to sleep in my own bed. I am still surprised how comfortable the sofabed was compared to other sofabeds. We walked all over the place, my foot is still killing me. I dont know what I did to my toe but it looked pretty bad at a time. I think just rubbing it was probably what did it. I dont know how Painterboy walked around in cheap Abercrombie Flip Flops all day (MOre about those later) We got to DC about 930 Thursday morning. As we were driving in, Marine One Flew over and that was awesome. PB (Short for PainterBoy) got a picture of it and it was good compared we were in the car and it was moving. I wish we could have gotten closer but the
experience was cool. We checked into the hotel and were impressed for the money how nice it was. DY and PB took a nap and I just couldnt. We decided to walk places or take the subway. We were about 7 block from George and the White house so we walked down. it was a beautiful day to be walking and walking and walking and walking. I think you get the idea. We saw the WH and that was Awesome, i will live there someday. We found the subway and took it to Arlington so we could see JFK and Jackie and the changing of the guard at the Tomb of the Unknown Soilder. We must have taken the long way up because it took a good half hour, forty five minutes to get up and then when we were done, it took maybe five minutes. Ok I may be exagerating a little but still it was nuts. We then went to the Capitol. We walked around it and Dy was all ready to keep going but PB and I revolted and demanded food. I was really crappy because i was tired. I dont think DY got it but oh well. I just wanted to go back and take a nap. They ate at Fudruckers, which we ate at the next day adn was pretty good. We went home and slept for a bit and then went to Dupont Circle to see what was up. We went back to the hotel and ordered a pizza and went to bed.The next day we got up, at like 11 and went to the art museum which was freaking huge. PB i think was super excited. We went to the Smithsonian and the mall. I expected the mall to be nicer but i guess everyone walking on it and stuff made it pretty run down. There were some hot guys there playing sports. We saw the giant penis, oops i mean the washington monument. That was cool. We started walking down to see Lincoln but i had hurt my toe the day before and just wanted to rest. I sat down watched the boys play rugby. I think DY
was jealous i got to do that LOL. I really think he thinks thats why i stopped, although it wasnt, just a plus. We went back to the hotel for a bit and then were going to eat at Dupont circle. We ate at California Pizza Kitchen. Ok the deal with tthat. We saw it the night before but they were closed. Painterboy and Dy were all excited about it and I thought they were nuts like normal because it was a pizza place, not named pizza express so how good could it be. Ok so you know i love the express but for different reasons, it is my comfort pizza. California Pizza Kitchen is Awesome. I hate veggies on pizza and it was so good. I hate chicken on pizza cause it seems wrong cause i love
chicken, but chicken and pizza just seems wrong somehow. Well this was sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo good. I just wanna say, if you have the option to eat there it is quite good. I want a second, more conveniant one in indy, the one here is a lot of work to go to. As for the picture, i think painterboy was just excited LOLWe got up the next morning and i misse dbreakfast buy like minutes, minutes people, do you know how annoying that is. This guy on the elavator was nice though and let me have some of his. Ok that sounds bad but it really wasnt. It was amuffin and it was wrapped. He was a nice guy and cute as all get out.
Once they finally got up, and i do mean finally, we went to the Potomac Mills Mall. Ok the thing is HUGE, HUGE PEOPLE it was sort of an outlet. some outlet stores and others not so much. it had an IKEA which is always fun. I bought pretty boring stuff. SO on Friday night, i walked around and it was raining and i was wearing flipflops to help no put pressure on my toe, so i kept slipping, like the bottom had not traction. I ended up walking back from the subway barefoot because it was easier. Although was not completly fun. This parking lot had likes of broken class put into the design, it seemed stupid to me and it kinda hurt but better than falling on my ass. Well overall that trip was fun. Some of us had a small stupid tiff on the car ride home. no need to get into it. We made it back alright. I drove like 4 hours on the way home while the other two slept. Dy i dont htink even woke up in that time. PB kept waking up and asking if i was alright. it was kinda funny. Well I think that is everything. Some pictures are on here but they are just ones i feel are cool or relavent
4.03.2006
I HATE GROUP PROJECTS
So ok, Everyone that was in college can definatly relate, I am sure to the story I am about to tell. I am in a class right now where we have to do group projects. I hate group projects, just the idea of relying on other for my grade bothers me. If i fuck up, fine but if I do a great job and they fuck up then the shit will hit the fan. I decided that with this group, I would kind of take charge in hopes that things will get done. Well in theory, it was a great idea. In reality, it has not worked out. the one flaw in my plan is that, even when you are in charge and tell people what needs to be done, you plan still relys on them actually doing it. I said I would put our proposal together and send it in. that way I knew what it said beforehand and knew it was done correctly. Well, I asked them to have it to me by Sunday at noon so I had time to do it. Well noon rolls around and NOTHING! I did not start getting stuff until around 5. Well now it is the next morning and I am still missing three whole sections from the paper and half of the major section. I am sure I am missing a section or two because the person is waiting on information from others. I will say that two people do have everything to me. Those are not who i am upset with. I am upset because its just the proposal and we can not get things in. I have to have this stuff by 4 to send in. If they do not have it to me, I am going to write crappy sections just to fill them in because as long as all the sections are there, it can be redone, i was trying to avoid that but I guess that is what this is for. The worst part about this is that we all get the same grade. I mean have us each grade each other so it gives a way to learn what people actually did. I am just so frustrated, I hate group projects because there are always people like this. Its so stupid. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
4.01.2006
Drama Drama Drama
So I went out to the club last night again. I went down with Burt, Ernie and Forgetfull. Forgetfull was acting wierd last night. Well, he was talking about Dynasty and I dont know what he meant by it. When we got there, there was a pagent going on. We waited for it to finish and went down and looked for a seat. We did not find out so we stood closer to the stage.
Well, Apparently it is a rule that here has to be at least one fat, faghag there in a horrible outfit. The last time I was there there was the girl i meantioned in a earlier post. Well last night there was another. She was a bigger girl, of course and she has a shirt on that was again to tight and showed he fat hanging over her jeans but that was not the worst part, the jeans just were HORRIBLE. They did not fit her well, made her look like she had no butt. But where the butt was, there were cutouts at the top down about half way down. It was just not what i wanted to see. It was so bad, i mean who thinks that would look good, especially on bigger girls. I mean i know i am fat so i dont wear what the twinks do.
So anyone, now that my bitching about that is over. Dynasty was there and so was his ex, Pharmy and Pharmys new THING, and i do mean THING, dipshit. Well Dynasty has been going through a lot of shit with Pharmy and he of course had to be there and they had to rub each others backs and shit. I mean like they are a fucking loving happy couple or something. It was so sweet i wanted to vomit, on them. I really wanted to go over to them and say something to him because I have no respect for him. He has treated Dy like crap recently and he deserves better. I will give it that stupid mistakes were made on both sides when they were together but GET OVER IT. If you can not fogive and move past it then why are you even friends. I mean, everyone has done something to someone and if you can not move past it then you shouldnt be friends. I hold on to shit longer than anyone and i have moved past things in the past and i dont mean with Dy just with anyone. Painterboy and I were going to go slash Pharmy's tires but we didnt, well i didnt, i dont know what happened after i left. I am just mad that Dy has had to go through this shit for no reason. Dy, you know i say this with all the love in the world but you can do SO much better than him. He is just not worth it. I am glad i left because had i stayed I would have gone and told him what i thought and also kicked his little bitches ass. I mean dipshit is just using him and thats sad because as much as i dont like pharmy, he deserves better too. He doesnt deserve Dynasty after this though. There is someone out there that will be so much better. Its just hard to see a friend go through this for no reason. It just seems like Pharmy is fucking with him in some perverse joke or to get back at him or something. Well I am done bitching.
Well, Apparently it is a rule that here has to be at least one fat, faghag there in a horrible outfit. The last time I was there there was the girl i meantioned in a earlier post. Well last night there was another. She was a bigger girl, of course and she has a shirt on that was again to tight and showed he fat hanging over her jeans but that was not the worst part, the jeans just were HORRIBLE. They did not fit her well, made her look like she had no butt. But where the butt was, there were cutouts at the top down about half way down. It was just not what i wanted to see. It was so bad, i mean who thinks that would look good, especially on bigger girls. I mean i know i am fat so i dont wear what the twinks do.
So anyone, now that my bitching about that is over. Dynasty was there and so was his ex, Pharmy and Pharmys new THING, and i do mean THING, dipshit. Well Dynasty has been going through a lot of shit with Pharmy and he of course had to be there and they had to rub each others backs and shit. I mean like they are a fucking loving happy couple or something. It was so sweet i wanted to vomit, on them. I really wanted to go over to them and say something to him because I have no respect for him. He has treated Dy like crap recently and he deserves better. I will give it that stupid mistakes were made on both sides when they were together but GET OVER IT. If you can not fogive and move past it then why are you even friends. I mean, everyone has done something to someone and if you can not move past it then you shouldnt be friends. I hold on to shit longer than anyone and i have moved past things in the past and i dont mean with Dy just with anyone. Painterboy and I were going to go slash Pharmy's tires but we didnt, well i didnt, i dont know what happened after i left. I am just mad that Dy has had to go through this shit for no reason. Dy, you know i say this with all the love in the world but you can do SO much better than him. He is just not worth it. I am glad i left because had i stayed I would have gone and told him what i thought and also kicked his little bitches ass. I mean dipshit is just using him and thats sad because as much as i dont like pharmy, he deserves better too. He doesnt deserve Dynasty after this though. There is someone out there that will be so much better. Its just hard to see a friend go through this for no reason. It just seems like Pharmy is fucking with him in some perverse joke or to get back at him or something. Well I am done bitching.
3.31.2006
people
So, I have two main topics today to blog about. the first being. FLIP-FLOPS ARE NOT FORMAL SHOES I just do not understand when people, mainly women, wear them with a very nice outfit. I saw a girl today and was wearing a very cute outfit but then had flipflops and they matched in color so I know she picked them out for that reason. It just kills me that people see those as formal wear, just because they are the same color does not mean you should wear them
The second thing is that, people driving. I had a woman yesterday that I had to merge into her lane before getting on the interstate. She started to honk a lot at me and so i flipped her off. Well then as I was getting over so i got on 70 and not 65, she got over with me and then was on my ass flicking her lights at me. I mean let it go. So she was on my ass in bumper to bumper traffic. I in my infinate wisdom hit my breaks, she did not hit me but still rode my ass. I mean come on, dont be stupid. Plus she was on her cell phone. I just thought what i bitch.
The second stupid person was on campus. I pulled into my parking space and then a few seconds later this guy did. He takes three trys to make his car straight and then when he gets out, hits my car with his door and just walks on. I mean he knew i was there, he could have just mouthed sorry or something. I went and looked at it and he dented it a little bit. I mean i normally would not care but he said nothing. NOTHING.
The second thing is that, people driving. I had a woman yesterday that I had to merge into her lane before getting on the interstate. She started to honk a lot at me and so i flipped her off. Well then as I was getting over so i got on 70 and not 65, she got over with me and then was on my ass flicking her lights at me. I mean let it go. So she was on my ass in bumper to bumper traffic. I in my infinate wisdom hit my breaks, she did not hit me but still rode my ass. I mean come on, dont be stupid. Plus she was on her cell phone. I just thought what i bitch.
The second stupid person was on campus. I pulled into my parking space and then a few seconds later this guy did. He takes three trys to make his car straight and then when he gets out, hits my car with his door and just walks on. I mean he knew i was there, he could have just mouthed sorry or something. I went and looked at it and he dented it a little bit. I mean i normally would not care but he said nothing. NOTHING.
3.29.2006
If you choke a Smurf, What color would it turn?
So I have not blogged in a long time. I am moving in with Grace and her husband, I dont remember his nickname right now. I think it will be interesting. I know it will be better than that the last place with Idiot because he was a freak. If you are roommates with somoene, you are not rude to their mom. Come on. He also would not let me eat my dinner or whatever i made until the kitchen was clean. I mean that is just stupid. The house is also bigger and has a lot less crap in it. I dont htink i will feel like i can not leave my room. The cat being there should be very interesting. Oscar-the-dog will love it but i dont know what Neo-the-cat will think. I think he will adjust over time and be ok. he will stay in my room when i am not there and probably for a the first few days so he gets used to things. I also dont know what i will take there. The stuff i think i need wont fit well in the room. We will have to see. It is going to be a lot cheaper even with having to pay3 months currently to get out of my lease. I will miss living downtown and near burt and ernie, and dynasty but i will be downotown ALL the time.
Fat club is going ok. I won last week but Grace was a sore loser and would not give up so we are double or nothing this week. I dont know if i will do well this week. We will see.
Dynasty is driving my nuts because he keeps putting these status messages up that say like "WOW" or "What a night" and Now he has "Who the fuck is ..." I wont say the name in case my larger group of readers knows who it is. It is kind of annying to read those and not be in the loop. It is probably something, i will hear who it is and not really care but still. He is at work but i texted him so we will see if he replys.
I am really bogged down with school right now. I need to make some serious progress on homework this week and weekend. I am really going to buckle down and get stuff done, as we can see while i writing a pretty long blog entry. I have group projects and i am basically the leader of the group. No one seems to want to do stuff but my grade is not going to be lowered by these people. Some i know will work hard to get a good grade but others dont show up to class and one leaves early every day and so has never talked to us.
I was in my history class yesterday and I realized what they permenant name for Squidgy should be. Feminazi! She likes it and its describes her but with a way over dramitization. I mean she could be considered that but then also she really isnt, I mean she took boriqua's (her husband) name which is a no-no in the "Feminazi" groups. boriqua is a nice guy. He helps me with my computer and puts up with me asking stupid questions.
Well that is all for now. I will leave you with the eternal question. If you choke a Smurf, What color would it turn?
Fat club is going ok. I won last week but Grace was a sore loser and would not give up so we are double or nothing this week. I dont know if i will do well this week. We will see.
Dynasty is driving my nuts because he keeps putting these status messages up that say like "WOW" or "What a night" and Now he has "Who the fuck is ..." I wont say the name in case my larger group of readers knows who it is. It is kind of annying to read those and not be in the loop. It is probably something, i will hear who it is and not really care but still. He is at work but i texted him so we will see if he replys.
I am really bogged down with school right now. I need to make some serious progress on homework this week and weekend. I am really going to buckle down and get stuff done, as we can see while i writing a pretty long blog entry. I have group projects and i am basically the leader of the group. No one seems to want to do stuff but my grade is not going to be lowered by these people. Some i know will work hard to get a good grade but others dont show up to class and one leaves early every day and so has never talked to us.
I was in my history class yesterday and I realized what they permenant name for Squidgy should be. Feminazi! She likes it and its describes her but with a way over dramitization. I mean she could be considered that but then also she really isnt, I mean she took boriqua's (her husband) name which is a no-no in the "Feminazi" groups. boriqua is a nice guy. He helps me with my computer and puts up with me asking stupid questions.
Well that is all for now. I will leave you with the eternal question. If you choke a Smurf, What color would it turn?
3.24.2006
Mechanics
So, I am pissed! I took my car in two weeks ago to have two new tires put on and align the car. Well it was not aligned. I took it in to a different Goodyear to have it aligned properly. it was also making a strange grinding noise from one of the rear tires. I get a call today that I need new front break pads, Fine, and the rear caliber and strut needs to be replaced. 899!!!!!! I dont know if i want to put that kind of money into my car. I called them back to tell them not to do it and i would take it somewhere else. They were kind of shitty and it has now been 5 hours since i called and it is not ready. I am getting pissed. Plus when i called they said that i could just fix the back and it would cost 539. So over 300 for just the front pads. That seems totally rediculous. I am not a car person but even i know when something is high.
3.22.2006
AHHHHH
IUPUI is a great school in some aspects. Unlike traditional colleges, I think I learned more from failing classes, having to miss for work, having to work and being burnt out than I did from going to classes. I know how to support myself, pay my bills and work hard. I would have a higher GPA if I went to IU or ISU or something but I would not be nearly as independent as I am today. I am happy with my choice because i know the little things that, when i graduate in 2052, will give me an advantage over graduates from IU or traditional schools because i can do the little stuff. I know that the bills have to paid monthly, although i still think that is crap, i mean i just paid that nad they want me to pay it again, what is that about?
Ok now on to my bitching. IUPUI has no consistancy in their advisors. I have taken classe sthat dont do anything for my degree. I have three classes that do NOTHING. Now i am scheduling for the summer and fall (god willing my last undergrad semester) and nothing is working out. Idont know if classes will work becuase they have this one class listed under Writing but technically it is a creative writing class and you can only take of those, which i am in now. IN communication they cancelled a class this semester which i really wnated to take and now I dont know what to do. an option is to take an extra semester and make communication a second major. I Dont know. AHHHHHHH
Ok now on to my bitching. IUPUI has no consistancy in their advisors. I have taken classe sthat dont do anything for my degree. I have three classes that do NOTHING. Now i am scheduling for the summer and fall (god willing my last undergrad semester) and nothing is working out. Idont know if classes will work becuase they have this one class listed under Writing but technically it is a creative writing class and you can only take of those, which i am in now. IN communication they cancelled a class this semester which i really wnated to take and now I dont know what to do. an option is to take an extra semester and make communication a second major. I Dont know. AHHHHHHH
3.21.2006
School
So I am sitting in my empty classroom that will in an hour host my class. I am here early because, well, i have nothing better to do in this hour. I call mama to say hey so she doesnt think i am dead. I know she likes to hear from so i am thre to help although it has occurred to me that mayb ei am doing to to much. Pompus (my sister) is not expected to call this much, i mean she is expected to call but not like i am. I guess that is the price I pay for being born first. She gets away with stuff I would not. I told my mom, I wanted I wanted to be put on things and know where everything was and she wanted to put pompus on stuff. I am fine with that, I think, although I dont know if I trust her to have that stuff. I gues I will have to see what she is wanting to put her name on. I just dont think she will listen to me and discuss what she does before we do it. I also dont want to share it with her because I dont feel that she will do what the folks want, she will do what she wants. I may not want what the folks want but they will get what they want. Its all a morbid topic that I dont want to talk about but it needs to be done. It just showing how much of an adult I am becoming. God that is sick.
I find out about the internships next week and i am not thnking I have a good chance. I really want them but I dont want to get my hopes up. I think it will be determined by how many qualified people applied and all. It was not promoted heavily and it took searching to find it so I am thinking people may not have known about it.
I find out about the internships next week and i am not thnking I have a good chance. I really want them but I dont want to get my hopes up. I think it will be determined by how many qualified people applied and all. It was not promoted heavily and it took searching to find it so I am thinking people may not have known about it.
3.20.2006
Stupid
So, I was looking at the forums on the Amazing Race today and these people are nuts. They are looking for patterns in the background pictures of the contestants to see who makes it to the top 5 or 6. They are going to take the picture beforehand so there is no way to know who will win then. Unless of course you believe the Rob and Amber/Uchena and Joyce theory that CBS intruded to make it a race, which would make it better but i mean rob and amber still lost when they were in the city. I dont really want to know who they are saying will win, but I want to look. I am reading bios on CBS website. BJ, on of the hippies graduated from Harvard! HARVARD! I am impressed. They come off as so laid back but that is something there. I really like them. They are having fun on the race and i think that is the best way to win and not kill each other. When Grace and i get on, we will have to do it that way to. (But who are we kidding, we will still yell and cuss at each other. A month together, OMG....... Hugs and puppies sweety ;) ) I also like the nerd David and Lori. I think they are hilarious because they are such nerds. Lake and Michelle need to go, they are annoying, they are not as bad as Jonathon and Victoria but they are bad. On the plus side with them is, i dont mind seeing him half naked, whereas Jonathon I did not really want to see. Eric and Jeremy also annoy me because they are cocky and sexist without really having reasons to be. They think they are hot and although not bad to look at, they are not all that. I think their dicks will eventually screw them up. There are other teams I like but I wont go into them because lets be honest, Grace is the only one who has gotten this far.
My other thing i want to bitch about is there guy in Nebraska whose roommates were having a party while he was gone and had the cops called. When they pulled the guy over, they arrested him for the charges because his name was on the lease. His roommates got fines he got 30 days in jail. He is 21, in college and is working and is serving longer sentences tha
n people who are caught drinking and driving. The judge says he wanted to set an example for other because people could die from going to these parties. I am all for ending drug and achohal abuse by college students but punishing this one guy for something done when he was not there is ridiculous. Arent there worse crimes out there than having a loud party. I am not saying let these things go but the boy was not even home (click on the picture for the full story). Children are being molested, killed, and beaten out there, women have being raped, killed, forced to be slaves. Gay men are killed for being gay. Black men and women are killed for being black. People are murdered every day for pocketchange or just because. I just dont understand. This is stupid!
My other thing i want to bitch about is there guy in Nebraska whose roommates were having a party while he was gone and had the cops called. When they pulled the guy over, they arrested him for the charges because his name was on the lease. His roommates got fines he got 30 days in jail. He is 21, in college and is working and is serving longer sentences tha
n people who are caught drinking and driving. The judge says he wanted to set an example for other because people could die from going to these parties. I am all for ending drug and achohal abuse by college students but punishing this one guy for something done when he was not there is ridiculous. Arent there worse crimes out there than having a loud party. I am not saying let these things go but the boy was not even home (click on the picture for the full story). Children are being molested, killed, and beaten out there, women have being raped, killed, forced to be slaves. Gay men are killed for being gay. Black men and women are killed for being black. People are murdered every day for pocketchange or just because. I just dont understand. This is stupid!
3.18.2006
Queens
So I went out to the gay bar last night. It was fun. Dynasty and PainterBoy were there. PainterBoy brought his hags. They were nice. A little haggy for my taste. I can take a good joke but i mean I dont like the girls that dont seem to understand the whole being gay thing. I know it is a joke but it seems like they are in love. I am just so happy none of my friends that are straight girls act like that. Its ok to be bitter when you see the drag queen has a better body than you, i am bitter about it to. Dont be bitter that all the guys in the bar are hot and gay. YOUR IN A GAY BAR!!!!!! DUH
So there was a girl there last night and she was a hag. She is a bigger girl but the thing that bugged me was that she was wearing a shirt that was to short so her belly, love handles and back fat were hanging out. It was just bad and she did not seem to know or care. She was there with some gays and what gay would let there hag go out like that. I mean none of my girlfriends (god i hate using that term) would go out of the house like that. I dont care if that is the only green thing she would have on St Pats day, it just would not happen. I know all my friends wouldnt want to wear that but to go to a gay bar dressed like that. Its a gay bar we are all super critical and i dont want to see that. Its just not flattering. Dont wear things that are to small for you it just makes you look bigger. If you wear things that fit in all the right places then you are going to look better and feel better. If she is happy looking like that at a gay bar, more power to her but no one i am going out with would look like that. (Grace, see i told you girls go out in BAD clothing to gay bars, i am just so glad you have higher standards than that)
So there was a girl there last night and she was a hag. She is a bigger girl but the thing that bugged me was that she was wearing a shirt that was to short so her belly, love handles and back fat were hanging out. It was just bad and she did not seem to know or care. She was there with some gays and what gay would let there hag go out like that. I mean none of my girlfriends (god i hate using that term) would go out of the house like that. I dont care if that is the only green thing she would have on St Pats day, it just would not happen. I know all my friends wouldnt want to wear that but to go to a gay bar dressed like that. Its a gay bar we are all super critical and i dont want to see that. Its just not flattering. Dont wear things that are to small for you it just makes you look bigger. If you wear things that fit in all the right places then you are going to look better and feel better. If she is happy looking like that at a gay bar, more power to her but no one i am going out with would look like that. (Grace, see i told you girls go out in BAD clothing to gay bars, i am just so glad you have higher standards than that)
3.17.2006
Personal Space
Why do people insist on breaking the personal space that people have around them. Well, my molesting at Kroger is an extreme example of people invading my personal space. The second would be the guy at Meijer that was standing so close to me I think I could feel him breathing on me. Why do people feel like they must stand that close to someone else that they dont know. If I were dating someone or even friends with someone then invading that space is different but i perfect stranger at Meijer, COME ON.
3.16.2006
Target
I love target. It is definatly my happy place. I went down there to get some fruit and veggies to snack on. Grace and I are in fat Watchers now and we are competing and i hate to lose. I figure if i have some fruits and veggies here then i am much more likly to snack on those rather than bad things. I am also going to try and take things to wrok with me to eat when i go back next week. I am annoyed with myself though because i did not get an apple or pineapple or anything. I got some good things but those are good to just eat. Pineapple though i would eat in like one ......maybe two sittings.
My cats are going nuts right now. They are locked up for reasons i wont discuss right now but they are locked when i can not watched them. They have to stay in the office when i am not here or in bed or in the shower. Its ok because they ahve a window and also have a their food, water and toilet. They are jumping all over each other at the moment and running around like they are nuts.
Well I am going to go make a smoothie and cut up veggies.
My cats are going nuts right now. They are locked up for reasons i wont discuss right now but they are locked when i can not watched them. They have to stay in the office when i am not here or in bed or in the shower. Its ok because they ahve a window and also have a their food, water and toilet. They are jumping all over each other at the moment and running around like they are nuts.
Well I am going to go make a smoothie and cut up veggies.
3.15.2006
Fat Watchers
Grace came over for dinner tonight. It was really good, i made a chicken that was herb and parmesan (not spelled right). We also started the first meeting of Fat Watchers which is our new club where we weigh each other every wednesday and work on losing weight. TOnight was the first night and Grace had a weight of ***, Haha I am not going to put it on here. I am not stupid. Our goal is loose as much weight as possible in a week. We dont have goals yet, we jus tneed to get it started and see what happens.
We also watched the race which was awesome. NO one was kicked off because it is a two parter. I think Grace and I should do the race because we would ROCK at it. its funny to see people make stupid mistakes but to be able to go around the world. Well that is all I have to say for now.
We also watched the race which was awesome. NO one was kicked off because it is a two parter. I think Grace and I should do the race because we would ROCK at it. its funny to see people make stupid mistakes but to be able to go around the world. Well that is all I have to say for now.
Reality Shows
So I just watched the new show on Lifetime Cheerleader Nation. It is freaking awesome. These Cheerleaders and their parents are nuts. They want to control their children and the girls take it sooooo seriously. I mean I don’t know if I am looking back at this as a college student and see what is really important. Did I take the Newspaper that seriously in high school. Yes I was a nerd and was editor of the newspaper and the yearbook in high school. (Grace no jokes). Although we were not as bad at the band people in high school. I don’t know if it is all band people but they take that stuff super seriously. You can only be friends with band people or date band people. They are like the cheerleaders
I also watched the amazing race (Grace don’t click on that unless you want to see what happens immediately) last night and it ROCKED. All the tasks were pretty difficult this week. Having to go through those Russian dolls where one is inside another that another inside and so on from big to super small to find a clue. This is totally crazy. I can not say much about the show because Grace hasn’t seen it yet and I don’t want her to be mad because she saw a clue of what happened but its good.
3.14.2006
Funny Cats
So I just watched a video that is hilarious. It is about a minute of funny cats doing stupid funny things. I sent it to everybody that would find it funny.
I am watching The new Adventures of Old Christine. It is actually really funny. "I haven’t been with a guy in so long, I get turned on by a sale at Target, if I could get a guy to touch me at Target, I would be golden." That is the great line from the first episode.
Last night was gay night. It was fun. It is always good to hang out with gays that are normal and not always looking for sex. Although it occurred to me last night that a lot of my friends are couples and that sucks. I hate couples when they are cute. I can deal with couples who are annoying. So last night, Markus was at dinner and he seems like a nice guy but it just weird. He talks about the weirdest things sometimes. They were talking about Chinese food and that a restaurant was really good but next to a Wal-Mart. How weird that it was next to Wall-World and would be good. Markus just then said "Well I know one thing that Wal-Mart is good for is oil changes, $20" Ok fine that comment is one thing but its out of place and compared that there is something like there every 5 minutes, it gets annoying. I just don’t know about him. Burt and Ernie are nice to hang out with because they are nice guys. I don’t get to hang out as much because of my classes and when they have dinner now.
Grace came over yesterday before her Kickboxing class, that she probably ended up not going to. Oh well, meds can do that. We hung out and snooped at the house next door. Its not really all the nice for 337000.00. I mean it is probably bigger than Grace's House because it does have a basement but the layout is horrible. Where graces house the kitchen in the back and then the front is the Living room, in this house, there is a SMALL living room up from then a kitchen which is not great and then a small family room. The living room could be set up to be cute but the family room would not fit a couch and a television very well. I just could not justify that much money and nothing really to show for it, but you could go somewhere else, even downtown and spend a lot less and get more.
Well back to Spring Break and must start doing something.
3.09.2006
Work
Well, I am here at work today. I am trying to find these dumb bible versus so that I can show this girl on the forum what is up. I mean why do people have to hate, why cant we all just get along? Wow that sounds really corny. I dont know what I want to do. I am really trying to avoid studying for my test but i need to because this is an important semester for me.
3.08.2006
Straight Men
So, I dont understand this one thing about straight men. Why do they try to over compensate their sexuality by making crude jokes or being way to forward with women. I am a gay man and can get further with women than that. If they are just nice to some women then they would be ok. There is a guy in my class that is like 30 and is just way to forward with these girls/. Who asks someone onthe first day of class. so what turns you on. I mean the girls flirt with him but i know they think he is a jerk. I mean come on. On the amazing race last night, these two guys were just being vulger in making commments about these two women. granted the women were there age and had huge boobs but still. maybe those are the only comments they made but why do you hav eto keep saying that, especially on tv. you are on camera dumbass
Kelly
So, Its amazing what happens when you listen to something through a critical ear. I love Kelly Clarkson, Love her album Breakaway. In a class, we are suppose to critique work from a certain perspective, i chose to do Kelly by the feminist method. Well, when i looked it, i found that it is not very empowering to women at first glance, until you see the underlieing tone of it. Its about a women who breaks up with a guy and then grows from it and become stronger. I came back to liking it even more after i realized what i was listening to. Its still a great album.
Well I am going to the movie with Grace tonight. might go to her house for dinner if there is time. I would rather have better seats than eat first. I am so tired right now. I need sleep. I am at work and its boring but i am dont with the paper with over an hour to spare, how nice is that.
Well I am going to the movie with Grace tonight. might go to her house for dinner if there is time. I would rather have better seats than eat first. I am so tired right now. I need sleep. I am at work and its boring but i am dont with the paper with over an hour to spare, how nice is that.
3.07.2006
Class Today
Wow. I was in class today and I can’t believe what some people think. My group was discussing what it is about women that I guess annoy us and what our wish list would be about women. We chose an example that although valid was not explained very well. I mean it is amazing what some women in the class (not all) say and think about things. I mean for them to discuss men’s restrooms like they pee in them everyday is ridiculous, I would not talk about women’s restrooms like I go in there. I mean it’s like straight women talking about what it’s like to be a gay man, I am not going to try to talk about what its like to be a mid forties black woman. I don’t know shit about what it is like to be her and they need to understand that. They also need to understand that just because one woman says an example, that does not mean that you need to tell use about the exact same thing that happened to you, I mean what does that offer to the conversation that couldn’t be achieved by saying "I had something like that happen to me and I think....” squidgy was in the class and I think understood what we were trying to say but I explained it to her better than this. I just don’t think we explained it to the class well. I hope the instructor did not take it personally because it can be hard to cut people off and all.
I am going to a movie with Grace tomorrow and it has Matthew mcconaghy (totally spelled wrong) in it and he is so freaking hot. I would totally marry him, although he with that faghag Penelope Cruz, I mean she dated tom cruise and he is big flaming homo. Maybe when she is done with matt, she will date Clay Aiken, because we all know how straight he is. Ha-ha. Grace is just as in love with him as I am, although she has been a fan longer though because I did not realize how hot he was until a few years ago. Oh I should say, in lust not love, she is in lust with him.
Spring break is next week and god do I need it, I am getting done with stuff and no one is stopping me. I just want to get done so I am sane at the end of the semester. I have a lot I can do to get ahead.
Well off to class.
I am going to a movie with Grace tomorrow and it has Matthew mcconaghy (totally spelled wrong) in it and he is so freaking hot. I would totally marry him, although he with that faghag Penelope Cruz, I mean she dated tom cruise and he is big flaming homo. Maybe when she is done with matt, she will date Clay Aiken, because we all know how straight he is. Ha-ha. Grace is just as in love with him as I am, although she has been a fan longer though because I did not realize how hot he was until a few years ago. Oh I should say, in lust not love, she is in lust with him.
Spring break is next week and god do I need it, I am getting done with stuff and no one is stopping me. I just want to get done so I am sane at the end of the semester. I have a lot I can do to get ahead.
Well off to class.
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